Is this what "Growing up" feels like?

[wetflame]

I have some terrible things I need to share with people... and here's the big cosmic joke, I have nobody that wil listen to me! I have to find some magical miracle way of passing my exams in college or I'm out for good. Because I made a single wrong decision, chose the wrong course, my life is fucked for good. Meanwhile there are people all around

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[panorphelia]

You've one friend in Cork anyways. You have my number - call me sometime, if ya want. Either way, do take care of yourself & stop being so hard on yourself, too.

*hugz*

-- Ali

[wetflame]

Thanks... *hug*

It's really depressing only having one reply in 2 days though... just goes to show how many people care about me :/

[_rhya]

Try some manifesting.Try to visualize yourself as happy with plenty of friends and doing well in college etc. Think of it as being already true. If you close you eyes for a few minutes each day and visualize this and thank the Gods for providing for you then it'll start to become true. Positive thinking attracts positive situations :)

[amadanban]

hey there Wetflame, I hope things are going a bit better for you now. Sometimes life feels like a toilet brush where you feel like you are shoved down the shithole all the time. Unfortunately, that prevents us from seeing that there are people who care for you. Its amazing the number of really nice people out there in life. You will meet them at various stages in your life and you probably have met some already. If things get over stressed for you, chat to the counsellors in the college.

As for your choice of college choice, many people are in a similar boat. Some of my friends got their degree in computing, worked for a couple of years but then legged it out of computing into something completely different. You could try applying for a council grant if you want to do a post grad. Now your is retired, you may have better chance of getting one.

as an aside, I think short hair rocks!

take care of yourself.

growing up

[anonymous]

just read your journal entry. You remind me of myself a couple of years ago. I was totally messed up with no way out.I had gender identity problems and I had noone to turn to.
Hope things turn out well for you.
Contact me if you need someone to talk to.
George

[deadlybuzz]

Hey, don't dis 420. I didn't get much more myself and I'm happy with it.
You can get a good few courses with that. Some in Trinity and UCD aswell.
Pick up a CAO book mkay?