[edit] Just seriously overreacting... guess I've been alone too long... and scared... just ignore this post, please... forgive the fuzz and the shock... [/edit ( Read more... )

I don't know what to hope for anymore...
I knew I never had reason to hope for her love...
But now I know I cannot even hope for her friendship...

I gambled away the only thing of worth I had... I hate it... I hate it all... not the world... not the others... just myself... my body, mind, heart and soul... I hate it all...

My father forced me to get my hair cut today... It took me months to grow it to the length it was, but only minutes to cut it back to almost the level it was before ( Read more... )

no words could ever express what I want to express...
so this will be simple...
it's over now...

I've been to the Zeitgeist (local Hobbystore9 today, and asked about the working experience. He actually didn't turn me down right away, but just told me that I can work there in Juli/August, and the he'll tell me the exact date later ( Read more... )

Okay, I am trying to see everything more positive, and so far I have pretty far managed to. I'm starting to enjoy the small simple things again, and I decided to not longer passively wait until someone stumbles across my writing, but more actively labour to make it known ( Read more... )

Not much news on my side. Just finished the base colors on all my gaunts last week, and spend the weekend reading Lovecraft. That guy really got a hold on me. XD
I also started taking notes on some writing projects, but I won't say more about those until they are finished, or otherwise people might get on my nerves about the progress.

I'm such an idiot ( Read more... )

My internet connection was almost broken for ages; I don't know since when.We fixed it two days ago, but I really don't know what to say. A lot and nothing has happened.
The rejections aren't really notable, though...
And I've again been to that medieval market; again without money.

today began, as my last post stated, my trial week at that shoe store. I've been "fired" already ( Read more... )