i do think you should stop trying to take care of everyone else before yourself. you're 20 years old and should be acting like it. you're no one's mother and you are responsible for no one but yourself. you shouldn't let people guilt trip you into taking care of them. i will be the first one to admit that i have done alot of things that aren't fit to print. but i never thought that you would go behind my back and print them for me. i kept your secrets, i still will. because they aren't mine to tell. it hurts that you have so many negative things to say about me. but it is what it is. if you want me to apologize for being hurt i won't do it. i apologize that i put it so negatively and i sincerely didn't mean to hurt your feelings. but i won't apologize for being upset.
i don't think you really understand what's going on here. but it's way too late in the situation to explain, so fuck it.
the last two weeks have been the hardest days i've had in a long time. everyone i thought cared completely bailed on me. everyone except ray and andrea. all i ever wanted you to say was "i'm sorry." but then you wait that long to even try saying something nice to me, after all the bullshit, AND ignoring me when i apologized to you, even though i really shouldn't have. i did that because i care about you. and i expected the same in return.
i bet you probably didn't mean to hurt my feelings. and i said what i said in the nicest way i could possibly think of. and yet here we are.
i really don't know what you want me to say, or what to think about this.
ps - i didn't say your name for a reason. plus, no one but you reads this anyway, and i figured you wouldn't even bother.
i dont know what about the situation i dont understand. if you had tried to talk to me about any of this, i would have felt better about it. but you automatically assume that im being a bitch and attack me. i dont know how you could expect me to apologize after what you said about me. you blew up my personal business and caused so much shit but as long as you feel better about it thats what matters. i dont think i should have to apologize for feeling ignored and hurt. like i said before, it wasnt just you that i was feeling that way about.
disclaimer: i had no intention of being brash with you, but unfortunately, you didn't choose the high road, and now you've got me all defensive. way to go
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and it's really annoying that i have to repeat that you freaked out over nothing because it WASN'T JUST YOU THAT I WAS TALKING ABOUT. and the post that i was talking about, wasn't on livejournal. it was on my blog on myspace. which ALL of our friends read. and thats the problem with me. i expect way too much from everyone. especially from you. let me make this clear now. i'm not ignoring you, i'm politely bowing out of this fight.
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you're no one's mother and you are responsible for no one but yourself. you shouldn't let people guilt trip you into taking care of them.
i will be the first one to admit that i have done alot of things that aren't fit to print. but i never thought that you would go behind my back and print them for me. i kept your secrets, i still will. because they aren't mine to tell.
it hurts that you have so many negative things to say about me.
but it is what it is.
if you want me to apologize for being hurt i won't do it.
i apologize that i put it so negatively and i sincerely didn't mean to hurt your feelings. but i won't apologize for being upset.
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the last two weeks have been the hardest days i've had in a long time. everyone i thought cared completely bailed on me. everyone except ray and andrea. all i ever wanted you to say was "i'm sorry." but then you wait that long to even try saying something nice to me, after all the bullshit, AND ignoring me when i apologized to you, even though i really shouldn't have. i did that because i care about you. and i expected the same in return.
i bet you probably didn't mean to hurt my feelings. and i said what i said in the nicest way i could possibly think of. and yet here we are.
i really don't know what you want me to say, or what to think about this.
ps - i didn't say your name for a reason. plus, no one but you reads this anyway, and i figured you wouldn't even bother.
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if you had tried to talk to me about any of this, i would have felt better about it. but you automatically assume that im being a bitch and attack me.
i dont know how you could expect me to apologize after what you said about me.
you blew up my personal business and caused so much shit but as long as you feel better about it thats what matters.
i dont think i should have to apologize for feeling ignored and hurt.
like i said before, it wasnt just you that i was feeling that way about.
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and the post that i was talking about, wasn't on livejournal. it was on my blog on myspace. which ALL of our friends read.
and thats the problem with me. i expect way too much from everyone.
especially from you.
let me make this clear now.
i'm not ignoring you,
i'm politely bowing out of this fight.
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