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Dead Like Me
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The Muse
H-Holy shit, my muse is back! It's been 13 years that I haven't been able to write any verse (not counting one or two outliers), like I used to do so often. I've been trying lately; trying real hard to get my brain to flow with the rhythm of those words. For personal reason (depression strikes back!) I needed to be able to capture that magic.
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Throwback: I’m no good at this living thing.
Wrote this in 2013 in what was, to this day, my lowest point. Was finally able to read it for the first time since and type it up (unfortunately because of how relevant it's become again, not because I'm so much better and beyond it). Posting here for posterity.
Warning: This is the closest thing to a suicide note I have ever written. It's not a ( Read more... ) -
Time Travel is Real, yo
They say that time travel doesn’t exist. Pfft. Tell that to the procrastinators. Their whole lives are lived in the future. It’s a precarious mix between the negative of “My life sucks [now]” and an optimistic “Things are going to be great [some day]!” Sometimes I think that, for some of us, we live our lives so far in the future that we’ll die ( Read more... ) -
Lessons from the Past: Invisible People
August 9, 2010
4:15PM
Yesterday after work I drove out of the parking lot and there was a man with a cardboard sign by the side of the road. He had a pack and a grizzled look. I wasn’t sure if he needed money or a ride. I could part with money-I had enough in my wallet-but was not willing to give him a ride. I’m sure that I could have found out ( Read more... ) -
Journal Writing: What's the Point?
Anytime I think of writing a journal entry I can’t think of anything specific to write which undermines, in my mind, the point of writing. If you have no ideas, then what is there to write about? Anything else is just faking it and feels so pointless. But that is the wrong way to look at it. What I need to do is put pen to paper, fingers to ( Read more... ) -
The fog has cleared
Things have been going well, lately. Very well. I got my residency sorted out at school (that was a big issue) and am now scheduled for summer classes. And it sounds like, according to the guidance counselors, that virtually all my transfer pre-reqs will be accepted. I could be done with my AA by end of spring semester next year. They’re still ( Read more... ) -
Working it out
Well the fog returned and I spent the last few days being basically useless. My social anxiety has gotten worse. It’s to the point where if I even hear voices out in the living room I don’t want to come out of my room lest I have to say hello. Yesterday my aunt’s son-in-law came over with his girlfriend and her kid. Even though it was like 8:45PM ( Read more... ) -
Youtube
Youtube is what they promised us when they first cut the strings, unwrapped the box and unveiled the world wide web to a dial-up, DOS world. It’s where you go to learn about damn near anything. Back in Kentucky, when my brake pads were worn, I’d go to my car friend and watch him do them. Sometimes he’d let me help: I’d hand him a hammer or a C- ( Read more... ) -
BE&BT
My mind has cleared ever since I wrote the other day. My mood has been better and I've been able to focus more. I've even been less tired. Yesterday (well, technically this morning) I marveled at how late it was, yet I wasn't tired. Usually I'm tired all the damn time. I went to bed because I felt I should, but even then almost got back up. When my ( Read more... )