Some captains see the sinking ship and they stay on. I am not one of those. So i am going to take this blogging thing seriously, and post things that will do more than just record my crazyness. although i promise to keep that as well ( Read more... )

who cares?

i think ive spent a nice amount of time longing for things i dont have. but why? i dont know these things. in my mind i know i make them greater than they are. im only going to love things i have from now on.

alright.

i always worry about being late to things. i try to arrive early. sometimes i arrive so early i have an extra hour to kill before said event. i get really shy about this and hide somewhere i dont think ill run into anyone so they dont ask why am i so early ( Read more... )

this is a rare moment in my life. recently ive had so much free time i havent known what to do with it, but all of a sudden i have so many things i want to do i feel i have no time to get them all done ( Read more... )

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i have a credit for a free audio book, now to get one of al gores books? obama?? something id have a hard time actually sitting down to read. (yes its true im not ashamed to admit that if its not fiction im usually not motivated.)

ok sometimes i get caught up day dreaming, so much so i lost my entire purse on the subway. my new camera, my wallet, my iphone head phones, a bunch of school work. i dont know what is wrong with me sometimes. i cant find a cheap ticket to london. blah!

omggg i cant continue to avoid this reading for discussion tomorrow morning. no matter how horrible it is.

i cut my hair.


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im very caring. really. too caring. so its very hard for me to not talk to someone, even when its obvious i shouldnt. so i resort to a trust worthy method, i delete them and any form of contact from my being. this is very efficient, and saves me and them a lot of un needed vapid attempts at being friends. this explains why i know a lot of people, ( Read more... )

i keep having the most awful dreams where my mom dies and all i want to do is be able to talk to her and its over, i cant. i cant hear anything new just her voice mail. its pretty awful. ive gotten really good to enjoying our conversations. i had a pretty great one with my dad today about how he doesnt want to be burried next to his ex wife and its ( Read more... )