a nameless face to think I see, to sit and watch the waves with me 'til they're gone

[warmsound]

I know it's just a silly commercialized holiday.

But it hurts anyway.

I'm just so damn tired of the loneliness of never having had a boyfriend to be able to share a special day like this with, to share ANY special day with.

There's really nothing else to say.  It just hurts.

Comments

[deirfiurbeag]

I hear ya. BELIEVE me, I hear ya. I could go on and on about how much it shouldn't matter, yet still does.

If it helps, I love you. :)

[warmsound]

*hugs* I'm sorry you know what this is like, too. :(

But thank you, and it does help. I love you, too, Kathryn. :) I hope you're doing well, and let me know if you ever need any more recommendations for mystery-genre books - I can get a list from my mom, hehe.

[deirfiurbeag]

You know, I think I will take you up on that book list offer. :) I've gotten through the five books I got at the library last time, so I need to make another trip this weekend. Anything you've got, I'll take it! :)

[warmsound]

Hey Kathryn!

Edit: Actually, I'm on the phone with her now, LOL.

Some authors she recommends are Nevada Barr, Tony Hillerman, P.D. James, and Elizabeth Peters - she says she'd recommend pretty much any of their books to check out if you haven't read any of them before. I hope that's helpful! :)

[emeraldwilwarin]

First of all, I'm sorry I got home too late in the evening to see this when you posted it, but I just have to give you *massive hugs* anyway and say I completely understand what you mean. But, honey, you're such a wonderful person that I KNOW there is someone out there who is equally as incredible as you who deserves you and will love and appreciate you for everything you are. That sounds like a whole bunch of flowery encouragement that is holds no substantial value in any way, but it's not. When you want something so badly it's so difficult to "just wait" for it to come and find you, and you want to punch everyone who says "it will come around in time, all you have to do is be patient", but I promise it WILL happen someday, and maybe even sooner than you think. The person you're waiting for could be right around the corner, and whether you seek them out or they find you when you finally meet them it will make everything worth it. I promise. And it will be so, so amazingly wonderful and everything you want, and you'll appreciate so

[warmsound]

*hugs back* Please don't apologize, Kayla, you definitely don't need to. :) Thank you so much for your reply!

You nailed it about how it's difficult to 'just wait' and everything. As much as I can be logical about it all, some days, it just kicks me in the ass, y'know?

Thank you for everything you said here - it really means a lot to have the love I have from all of my friends. You've got all of mine, always, as well. :)

I love you!

[tiny_dancer]

It just fucking blows, doesn't it?

I'm sorry the lonely bug bit you in the ass, darling. It's a motherfucker, and it got me too.

We'll talk tomorrow night? I have no more minutes left on my phone, but I'll work something out :)

xoxo

[warmsound]

Seriously. It's just...asdluyaslfiuasldkjasdha. I trust you know exactly what I mean by that, LOL.

I'm sorry it got to you, too. :( *hugs* Stupid lonely bug. *sprays it with repellent*

;D

Tomorrow night sounds good. :) Lemme know about what time and such, and I'll talk to you tomorrow then!

xoxo ♥