a nameless face to think I see, to sit and watch the waves with me 'til they're gone

[warmsound]

I know it's just a silly commercialized holiday.

But it hurts anyway.

I'm just so damn tired of the loneliness of never having had a boyfriend to be able to share a special day like this with, to share ANY special day with.

There's really nothing else to say.  It just hurts.

Comments

[emeraldwilwarin]

First of all, I'm sorry I got home too late in the evening to see this when you posted it, but I just have to give you *massive hugs* anyway and say I completely understand what you mean. But, honey, you're such a wonderful person that I KNOW there is someone out there who is equally as incredible as you who deserves you and will love and appreciate you for everything you are. That sounds like a whole bunch of flowery encouragement that is holds no substantial value in any way, but it's not. When you want something so badly it's so difficult to "just wait" for it to come and find you, and you want to punch everyone who says "it will come around in time, all you have to do is be patient", but I promise it WILL happen someday, and maybe even sooner than you think. The person you're waiting for could be right around the corner, and whether you seek them out or they find you when you finally meet them it will make everything worth it. I promise. And it will be so, so amazingly wonderful and everything you want, and you'll appreciate so much more than girls who just have love fall into their lap, because the love you'll find will be so true, and genuine, and real. Sometimes it's better to wait a while despite how much it hurts, because then you'll handle it with care and won't take it for granted. It will happen for you, Lis, I know it will.

Despite how you feel and that I wasn't able to say it yesterday, I thought of you a lot yesterday and while you may not have a boyfriend at the moment, you still have plenty of people who love you very, very much. And that's what Valentine's Day is truly about; not only having a lover in our lives, but love in general. And you've got all of mine, always.

*hugs* I love you so much.

[warmsound]

*hugs back* Please don't apologize, Kayla, you definitely don't need to. :) Thank you so much for your reply!

You nailed it about how it's difficult to 'just wait' and everything. As much as I can be logical about it all, some days, it just kicks me in the ass, y'know?

Thank you for everything you said here - it really means a lot to have the love I have from all of my friends. You've got all of mine, always, as well. :)

I love you!