so today... i went to school... was bored... drew some stuff... brian came... we went and got coffee... we talked... told him all about yesterday... he was shocked... he couldn't believe how well i took it... yay me i guess... actually no... scratch that... life is too complicated... why can't someone just give me the meaning... so anyways... after ( Read more... )

Everything WILL work out... Everything WILL be okay... no more negative... stop worrying ( Read more... )

God... WHY AM I SO FUCKING PATHETIC??? why can't i shut up... why can't i just shut up... all i do is make things worse... why am i so paranoid... why am i so stupid ( Read more... )

grar... stupid mom... tay called me a bit ago to go with her to do grocery shopping... and i REALLY did wanna go... but of course... my mom insists i go mow the lawn and go look at a car today... anyways... i'm gonna try calling her later... maybe we can still do something... i hope so...

and life keeps on keeping on... keep it up...

i posted a bunch more on xanga... feel free to read all of it there... i'm tired of reposting everything... but yeah... its all on public... i could care less who reads what i write... i'm not ashamed of anything i write... i'm human... i laugh i cry i smile i frown... so fucking what... so do all of you... so anywayz... bye bye world... i won't be ( Read more... )

look its me!!!

http://www.xanga.com/LoveIsAlwaysEnough
http://www.myspace.com/mycarisdeadi realized one of the things that really bothered me yesterday ( Read more... )

He goes to sleep wishing she was there...

He wakes up knowing she is not...

He can wait...

He loves her...

I LOVE HER...

I'm so lost right now... i don't know what i want anymore... i just can't seem to get it right... and the one thing i do want... well it's just sooo far out of my reach... blah... i don't know what to do anymore... i don't know who i am any more... i just don't know anymore... but i guess i have to deal... she's worth it she's worth it he keeps ( Read more... )

so yeah... i mean... i really hope she was being honest with me... i think she was... either way... i feel alot better now...

of course... now my cell phone is being the suck... it won't let me send text messages... GHEY... so yeah... life goes on... :)