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i realized one of the things that really bothered me yesterday...
so tay was on my computer talking to jalina.. and she said something like... i really wanna spend some time with my lover... and i honest to god thought she was talking about me... partly because well i just did... and because she paused for a second like she was gonna put boyfriend and then realized im not anymore... it never occured to me she was talkin about jalina... :'(
anyways... i called her cause my mom pissed me off... we talked for a bit... i was sad... she cheered me up a bit... but it still feels like she doesn't really want much to do with me... i dunno... i'm probably just paranoid...
God... i so badly wish things could return to semi normalacyness (thats not a word... but o well... if docter suess could do it so can i...)
Why am i so jelous of paul... really i think its just because it seems like she talks to him way more than she talks to me... like we used to... i miss it so much... i still remember my favorite two messages she ever sent me... "Lover...when do you get out you need to come..i miss you and have things to tell you. They are funny." and "I miss you and love you like noodle loves parmesan cheese jason is so awesome... Thank you for teaching of scare car driving stuff. :) :* :* :)
More to come later... i can't write any more right now... ill post again in a bit...
http://www.xanga.com/LoveIsAlwaysEnough
http://www.myspace.com/mycarisdead
i realized one of the things that really bothered me yesterday...
so tay was on my computer talking to jalina.. and she said something like... i really wanna spend some time with my lover... and i honest to god thought she was talking about me... partly because well i just did... and because she paused for a second like she was gonna put boyfriend and then realized im not anymore... it never occured to me she was talkin about jalina... :'(
anyways... i called her cause my mom pissed me off... we talked for a bit... i was sad... she cheered me up a bit... but it still feels like she doesn't really want much to do with me... i dunno... i'm probably just paranoid...
God... i so badly wish things could return to semi normalacyness (thats not a word... but o well... if docter suess could do it so can i...)
Why am i so jelous of paul... really i think its just because it seems like she talks to him way more than she talks to me... like we used to... i miss it so much... i still remember my favorite two messages she ever sent me... "Lover...when do you get out you need to come..i miss you and have things to tell you. They are funny." and "I miss you and love you like noodle loves parmesan cheese jason is so awesome... Thank you for teaching of scare car driving stuff. :) :* :* :)
More to come later... i can't write any more right now... ill post again in a bit...