Trust (Love Letters, Theta/Koschei, PG-13)

[von_gelmini]

Title: Trust
Series | Arc: Love Letters | none
Age | Sequence: 83 | 1
Author: von_gelmini
Fandom: Doctor Who
Characters: Theta/Koschei
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 482
Warnings: none
Disclaimer: I do not own Doctor Who. I am not writing this for profit.

Comments

[silvermoon_06]

Oh wow! This is so beautiful, and sad, and heartbreaking all at once.

Poor Koschei. You really have captured all of Koschei's ferocity and his strong feelings of possession and love for his Theta. All he wants is for his Theta to be with him, but he also wants him to know that he loves him with both his hearts. This moved me to tears, Koschei really poured his hearts out to his Theta, telling him he didn't want to lose him again.

This was so well written, and so poignant and so very beautiful. I felt so sad for Koschei. He definitely needs lots of comforting hugs and loving from his Theta. He is just as much of a passionate soul as Theta is, but his personality differs in a way that he can only express himself with that strong ferocity. But that's just Koschei, and I love him the way he is. Thanks again for another amazing update with our boys, kind sir. I really loved this very much. *hugs*

[von_gelmini]

Thanks so much. I'm so glad you liked it. He really is just as passionate as Theta, just in a different way like you said. I can't write him getting romantic without him also getting possessive. The two go hand-in-hand for him, just like the opposite is true for Theta... he expresses his love by surrender. He just needed to tell Theta the truth of how much he really cares for him, even though he couldn't ever actually come out and say the words aloud. So he made me write this letter. :)

[scifiangel]

Love this! The first part was so loving and heartfelt.

Worlds will quake. People will know our names in fear and in triumph.

Boy, that sent chills down my spine knowing what we now know.

[von_gelmini]

Thanks. I'm glad you liked it. :)

Yep, gotta throw a bit of the foreshadowing into the mix. :)

[beachy_geek]

"I know I've hurt you. I know I will hurt you again." Such turmoil in his soul! And knowing now that poor Koschei was seeded with the sound of drums as a child--he never stood a chance to have a peaceful existence. I went back and re-read the Love Letters recently and they were so much more poignant since EoT.

"I will make it right for us." If only. As usual you have melted and broken my heart in the same letter!

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[von_gelmini]

Thanks so much. They both have such youthful optimism at this stage. Certain that the world is their oyster and nothing will ever get in their way. I love that about them, especially as we the readers know better. It just makes it that much more heartbreaking.

[witchway]

All the things I never say, I never can say. But of all those things the one that is above them all, the one that no one else will ever have - my absolute, undying, unequivocal trust.

*sigh*

So sweet, and not sad (the "can't say" part) because he is willing to put it into writing.

*sighing still*

[von_gelmini]

Thanks. I'm glad you liked it. :) Well, he can't say aloud. In conversation it would just be too difficult because then the other person can immediately respond and he's worried he might trip over his words. In a letter, he can perfect his phrasing and not have to worry about how Theete will react.

I've postulated that the whole reason the Master is so obsessed with the Doctor is because he loves him so much and because the Doctor was the one who left him. He basically has never gotten over that betrayal and it's what's caused the enmity between them. Basically, the Doctor is responsible for all the destruction & death the Master caused because he left him and if he'd stayed then the Master would've never done all that. It makes perfect sense... from the Master's perspective anyway *g*... and to some extent from the Doctor's too, at least Ten's what with his massive guilt complex.

massive guilt complex

[witchway]

My husband and I spoke at length about how EVERYTHING in the Year That Never Was was the Doctor's fault. MOSTLY because he ran away from Jack, nor did he take Jack aboard the Tardis, even when he was hanging on to the outside, and let the Tardis go to the end of the universe to get away from Jack, and thus 'woke up' the Master. THEN he made it impossible for the Master to go anywhere BUT the end of the universe and that date in the past.

Anyway.....it WAS all his fault.

Re: massive guilt complex

[von_gelmini]

Then we all agree. :D I think the Doctor is one of the great Anti-Heroes around 'cause he likes to think he's all strictly heroic, but even without going all Time Lord Victorious, his actions have so many consequences that he never stops to deal with. My x and I were talking about the whole Adipose thing. If the doctor hadn't interfered, Earth has plenty enough people who need to lose a few kilos and won't miss it at all but will be thankful for it that there could've been millions and millions of adiposian babies born and no one needed to have died (or very few, and those mostly by accident.) But when the Doctor interferes and threatens to call down the Shadow Proclaimation, well, then Nanny goes into overdrive and tries to kill everyone. Had he not interfered, it'd been a win/win for everybody! :)

Oh and the Doctor's whole reaction to Jack makes me want to just slap him senseless.

[tbsavafob6]

This is perfect. Hands down, one of my favorite of yours. It just works so well.

[von_gelmini]

Thanks so much. :)