Trust (Love Letters, Theta/Koschei, PG-13)
Title: Trust
Series | Arc: Love Letters | none
Age | Sequence: 83 | 1
Author: von_gelmini
Fandom: Doctor Who
Characters: Theta/Koschei
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 482
Warnings: none
Disclaimer: I do not own Doctor Who. I am not writing this for profit.
Trust
My Theta,
My unique, special, darling Theta. Do you know, can you even imagine? How much I need you and want you and cherish you. All the things I never say, I never can say. But of all those things the one that is above them all, the one that no one else will ever have - my absolute, undying, unequivocal trust. My hearts, my body, even my mind, Theta. No one has ever touched me like you do. You’re the first thing I think about when I wake up, the last before I sleep. You’re in my dreams. You were made for me, born for me, live for me and die for me. I don’t know how, I don’t know why. But we are. A fact in the universe. Changing, winding, twining, looping through time and space but always there - Koschei and Theta. I know you feel it too. Never parted, never ending. You fear being alone so much my love, but how can you ever be? We’re joined throughout eternity. As long as I exist you are never alone. And I am Koschei the Deathless, I will always exist. I will never leave you, never let you go, never not love you with everything I am.
I know I’ve hurt you. I know I will hurt you again. Why, when I love you so much, do I keep on hurting you? I don’t mean our bedroom games, I know that is something we both want, we both need. I don’t know why I’ve hurt your hearts. I’ve heard you cry. I’ve felt you break. And still I do what I do, what I’m meant to do, even though I love you. Maybe even because I love you. Because admitting that you have so much of my life in your hands... that you control me and that you own my soul as much as I own yours... that tears me so apart and puts me at war with myself, and even writing this I’m at the edge. Even so, I never want to run from you. Always to you. To give myself to you. To put my fate in your hands and trust you with my life.
You don’t believe in fate, but it’s real. It drives me and, though you don’t admit it, it drives you too. You hold my hearts. You took them the moment you opened your eyes, before we even met. Nothing can convince me otherwise. That it is fate, destiny, time - written before we even were. We’ve both foreseen so much pain, so much chaos, but I will make it right for us. Fate will bend to my will, to our desires. We are Time Lords and together we will weave the strands until they sing for us. Worlds will quake. People will know our names in fear and in triumph. We will be forever.
Your Koschei
Series | Arc: Love Letters | none
Age | Sequence: 83 | 1
Author: von_gelmini
Fandom: Doctor Who
Characters: Theta/Koschei
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 482
Warnings: none
Disclaimer: I do not own Doctor Who. I am not writing this for profit.
Trust
My Theta,
My unique, special, darling Theta. Do you know, can you even imagine? How much I need you and want you and cherish you. All the things I never say, I never can say. But of all those things the one that is above them all, the one that no one else will ever have - my absolute, undying, unequivocal trust. My hearts, my body, even my mind, Theta. No one has ever touched me like you do. You’re the first thing I think about when I wake up, the last before I sleep. You’re in my dreams. You were made for me, born for me, live for me and die for me. I don’t know how, I don’t know why. But we are. A fact in the universe. Changing, winding, twining, looping through time and space but always there - Koschei and Theta. I know you feel it too. Never parted, never ending. You fear being alone so much my love, but how can you ever be? We’re joined throughout eternity. As long as I exist you are never alone. And I am Koschei the Deathless, I will always exist. I will never leave you, never let you go, never not love you with everything I am.
I know I’ve hurt you. I know I will hurt you again. Why, when I love you so much, do I keep on hurting you? I don’t mean our bedroom games, I know that is something we both want, we both need. I don’t know why I’ve hurt your hearts. I’ve heard you cry. I’ve felt you break. And still I do what I do, what I’m meant to do, even though I love you. Maybe even because I love you. Because admitting that you have so much of my life in your hands... that you control me and that you own my soul as much as I own yours... that tears me so apart and puts me at war with myself, and even writing this I’m at the edge. Even so, I never want to run from you. Always to you. To give myself to you. To put my fate in your hands and trust you with my life.
You don’t believe in fate, but it’s real. It drives me and, though you don’t admit it, it drives you too. You hold my hearts. You took them the moment you opened your eyes, before we even met. Nothing can convince me otherwise. That it is fate, destiny, time - written before we even were. We’ve both foreseen so much pain, so much chaos, but I will make it right for us. Fate will bend to my will, to our desires. We are Time Lords and together we will weave the strands until they sing for us. Worlds will quake. People will know our names in fear and in triumph. We will be forever.
Your Koschei