So, I'm flying out Wednesday afternoon alone- then it's goodbye Florida.

I haven't gone to bed yet.

Ugh. I'm frustrated.

This is just a big fucking vacation to her. I'm so pissed off right now.

So yeah, Jeannine got a new computer today. HP ZD8000 series. David and I have been playing with it all day. Pictures may come later. :)

I don't like me. Why can't I like me? All I do is doubt everything in the world. Nothing will EVER be exactly the way I want it to. So I just... hate it all. Why do I have to hate it all...

I don't want to be Jeannine anymore.

I keep thinking about a rainy airport. People walking quickly. The palm of my right hand moving along David's scalp of short hair. I'm getting sad a lot sooner than I have to.

I find it completely amazing that I am on the internet right now. The wind outside is forceful enough to shake my house. The microwave keeps making popping sounds... as if popcorn has been spinning free in it for hours.

I don't think there will be much of a New Orleans for Kelsey to go back to. Maybe not much for anyone.

There are so many choices swirling around in my head that I can't make up my mind. It doesn't really make a difference if I cry... but I cry a lot. A feeling builds up in my neck and runs through the back of my skull to a point where I can't control my eyes. Why do I have to cry so much? I don't want to cry anymore ( Read more... )

"Yeah... I'm ready for some 43 myself, personally. Neo... what an enigma of a man."


( Read more... )

Getting to know yourself must take a really long time. Sometimes I think I should take a stab at psychiatry.

Today sucked. Does anyone in the world like their job?

I feel somewhat mismatched tonight. Being absent from school didn't really hit me until yesterday on the way to work when I passed a school zone. It was the first time my mom had to slow the car down because of a blinking yellow light ( Read more... )