I'm having trouble focusing, as can be seen from the time-stamp. I learned something interesting. I remember last night a weird dream (?) where the left side pulled a tail with a dark black stinger from a muscle of the right side.

ya... the dark-pitch of self-doubt.

So I have been off my game... it is odd. I am having trouble getting back into the swing of things. I think going back to Dev yesterday scared me. There was so much positive energy and emotional support that I felt out of place and extremely self-conscious. I think I am excavating a powerful belief that good/pleasurable things are not supposed ( Read more... )

You showed up, I think that was the lions share of what I wanted. I'm still not totally waking straight b/c of last night. Went to a Bad Religion Show with Ross ( Read more... )

That was interesting. Erin went out of her way to emote and... I don't know. I really want to discredit it, but at the same time it wasn't really directed at me, so my opinion is sort of beside the point.

So here I am again, after a day and a half away. That was a pretty significant absence, and even so when I was coming in today it was with a fair amount of trepidation ( Read more... )

I am pretty sure today qualifies as a miserable day. just running through the laundry list, I had both the mentor and the counselor cancel on me, I was directly excluded from a lightning talk I was looking forward on giving, and that is about it ( Read more... )

Start over ( Read more... )

proposed daily schedule
-yoga in the morning (m-w)
-20min boxed journal ck in
-work on skills, morning
-lunch workout
-work on ap, afternoon
-mentor T&R; game W; lisel F

Not sure about this... complicated decision of the internet, associating yourself with a person you were a long time ago. Still this felt the more appropriate of the two and so here I am ( Read more... )

For those who have only mortality,
`````it is imagination.
For those with imagination,
`````it is seen as courage.
For those possessed by courage,
`````it is felt as love.

I wonder...
`````what is known by those who feel love?
`````what is hidden behind petals yet furled?