The last six months ( Read more... )

The last few months have been hellish. That seems like hyperbole. It doesn't feel like hyperbole. I let a series of unfortunate events force me to shrink. I actually feel smaller. That whole when it rains it pours thing? No joke ( Read more... )

I feel stuck.

Maybe I need to write it down. Make it real, let it be seen. Shoot the feeling out into the world and see what comes back.

Tuck head down. Keep going. Remind self that no feeling is final. Dance. Go outside. Hug my people. Repeat.

Repeat. Repeat. Repeat.

I want to always remember laying in your bed with the city lights twinkling between the blinds and laughing so hard I can barely breathe. Because these are the moments that we fell in love - the moments that bind us. The moments where you play with my seams, grab my hand in the car, pull me into you as we walk down the sidewalk, and put creamer in ( Read more... )

The most terrifying thing I have ever experienced is a slow, gradual disengagement from somebody you love. It is abandonment but in slow motion. It's not like a ripped off band-aid. It is a slow burn that starts in the center and radiates out. By the time you realize what has happened, your entire being is charred ( Read more... )

He told me to move closer to the window so he could see me in the morning light.

There's no fear.

I'm still dancing on my own.

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This one could hurt pretty badly. But I'm well versed in dusting myself off.

I asked where he came from tonight. For some reason, his presence in my life is always blindsiding me. He whispered "Hollywood" and I burst into laughter.

I'm staying. He makes me want to stay. I've been moving for so long.

Goddamn you, Sam. This song is everything to me right now. I will be conceiving my first child to this song.

"If there are boundaries, I will try to knock them down."

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What's next ( Read more... )