ive been feeling shitty the past few weeks. i dont know whats up with me. i very much like to be left alone for the most part and ive spending my money like i have no reason to save. i need a smack and some new people to have fun with.

i wanna go back to vegas badly. i miss it. i miss the girls acting like girls and not sluts. and i miss the boys...one boy. i miss me feeling like i could just be me and not worry how drunk i need to be to get by. but if i go. i miss him so much more. i still cant believe that im doing this to myself after all this time. move on stupid.

Most of what I really need to know about how to live, and what to do, and hope to be, I learned in kindergarten. Wisdom was not at the top of the graduate school mountain, but there is the sandbox at nursery school ( Read more... )

jorina, polaroid decided to stop making their camera and film! of course i thought of you right away and it made me sad. im gonna go buy some film and enjoy it while time is left =/ i love polaroid, if it wasnt so expensive, i use it more than digital ha

sometimes i just miss you so much. bring a date to my birthday. and ill show you how strong i can be. and ill be all dress up, looking somewhat decent, and....nah you wont miss me. sometimes i really think im just fooling myself when i think its never over.

From the moment the lights went off ( Read more... )

i must make this friend thing work. but today, when we talked, and you asked me what i was doing friday, i got too excited. and then i went online, and saw you were hanging out with the one i cannot stand, eh it got to me haha love how jennie called me today, and basically said oh if you guys are gonna get back together, you gotta start somewhere ( Read more... )

i know you love me. but lets try this friendship first. i know we can do it. besides, we're not right for each other. for now ( Read more... )

i love the guys at the tattoo palor.i want to make out with dj. haha hes cute. and the manager is dope. yeah i got another tattoo. its addicting. anyways. i love my asianmomma, always taking care of me. this reminds me that my birthday is soon. im not a teen anymore. ha i dont what it suppose to mean

at least you admitted to me that you wanted to see me. and you responded to what i had to say even though you were mad. i dont know why things are the way they are. none of it makes any sort of sense and i dont want to be with you, i wish you would understand that. but something in me just says...there something..maybe.