Comments | vientoeste: Shared by Jamie & Ellie

vientoeste

Shared by Jamie & Ellie

Aug 25, 2005 18:54

Now THIS is a worthwhile meme. I love learning about the minutia that goes on in everyone's world but no one tells each other about. Of course I'll reply.

Leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. say anything. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me abut your love, your hate, ( Read more... )

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lemontina9 August 25 2005, 18:12:31 UTC

Anonymouses can't read this post, so they can't comment.

Not that I was going to or anything O:-)

vientoeste August 25 2005, 18:14:29 UTC

There's an option when you post a comment to post as anonymous, even when you're logged in. =)

lemontina9 August 25 2005, 18:21:41 UTC

But if you select it on a friends entry it won't actually post when you click post comment.

vientoeste August 25 2005, 18:23:54 UTC

Ah, right you are. Didn't know that. Thanks.

jaiderai August 25 2005, 20:53:41 UTC

You look hot with a moustache.

jaiderai August 25 2005, 20:54:23 UTC

Arrgh, that was supposed to be anonymous! I've been found out! ;)

vientoeste August 26 2005, 09:29:00 UTC

Well, now I know why it never would have worked betweeen us: I don't have a mustache!

;)

anonymous August 26 2005, 01:15:57 UTC

I'm ashamed of everything I do and everything I say. Everytime I interact with someone, no matter what happens, I come out of it feeling stupid and hating myself. I get so ashamed and embarassed I hurt myself over it - I have to punish myself for it.

I hold everything back. My family hates me for it - I never show emotion or affection because I can't, I feel things too much. I'm either emotionless and indifferent or I'm crying screaming because there's no middle ground for me. And I'm always ashamed after I give into the rushes of emotion.

vientoeste August 28 2005, 11:17:09 UTC

This is something that I have had to learn to do, and it's hard, but really worthwhile: accept that people are not judging you as harshly as you think. And if they are judging you and will decide not to like you because of what they perceive about you, then they're not worth your time or energy.

I understand about feeling too much. It's scary to have so much emotion welling up in you at once. I have found this is much less scary when you have someone to share those feelings with, to talk about them, and figure out why you might be feeling them and how they could help you.

I'm always here to talk. If you're on my flist, then you have my email address and my screen name and likely my phone number.

Much love for who you are,
Britt

anonymous August 26 2005, 23:51:54 UTC

I am a Hardliner. Ever since I left my best group of friends after first grade, I've never felt like I've truly fit in anywhere socially. The Hardline was the first place in a long time where I felt like that. Even as a little kid, I knew I was mentally and emotionally in a different, perhaps more mature place than my peers. The only people I feel comfortable with socially, I met on the internet ( ... )

vientoeste August 28 2005, 11:07:34 UTC

I understand exactly how you feel. It is a basic human need to feel at home with some group of people, and us HLers are blessed to have connected up with some great people who feel like we do about life.

I have found it helpful when dealing with people who can be hard to be around if I come to expect that they will be ____ (insert description: a princess, boy-crazy, shallow, etc) then I am not dissapointed when they act that way. So, assuming you have some things worth talking about with them, you can go into a conversation with Jane and Suzy, knowing they're going to freak out about college and which boys are hot, and you'll just enjoy them for what they are. Then you can get on AIM or the phone and have a real conversation with me or your choice of the many other fabulous HL girls.

I'm glad you do have some points of happiness in your life: cling to those and you'll make it. Patience is incredibly hard, I know.

<3
B

anonymous August 27 2005, 19:38:37 UTC

There hasn't been a day in recent memory where I haven't woke up and immediately thought of dying. How to do it, why I should... the first twenty minutes or so of every day is spent lying in bed and trying to figure out ways I could be killed and why I would deserve each and every one of them.

It's seeming more and more like a good idea. I'm on enough antidepressants to kill a small dog but they aren't working and they haven't and I have the scars to prove it. Maybe college will help.

vientoeste August 28 2005, 10:57:21 UTC

Since you must be my friend to be on my LJ, I hope that you will email me to tell me who you are so we can talk about this: one friend to another. I would like nothing more than to help you find a way to see and feel a little more light in your life.

In case you won't email me, I will say here that High School is not a good place to be for sensitive, intelligent people - it has done a lot of damage, but it is repairable. In college you will get to pursue your interests and hopefully get to know people with whom you connect because they are also mature, motivated, smart, creative people. I think that's worth holding out for. I believe you can rise above this.

Please let me or someone else into your confidence to help you. Please.

Much love and power to you,
Britt