Shared by Jamie & Ellie

[vientoeste]

Now THIS is a worthwhile meme. I love learning about the minutia that goes on in everyone's world but no one tells each other about. Of course I'll reply.

Leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. say anything. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me abut your love, your hate,

Comments

[anonymous]

I am a Hardliner. Ever since I left my best group of friends after first grade, I've never felt like I've truly fit in anywhere socially. The Hardline was the first place in a long time where I felt like that. Even as a little kid, I knew I was mentally and emotionally in a different, perhaps more mature place than my peers. The only people I feel comfortable with socially, I met on the internet.

I've lost my ability to even pretend to be comfortable in the social situations I find myself in during my day-to-day life. I can't relate to my acquaintances because we're from completely different universes. I believe very strongly in what I believe in, but when I'm around these people, it crosses my mind that maybe I should try being more like them so that I can be more comfortable at social events. That thought is fleeting, of course. My friends in other areas of my life are such good ones that my standards have been impossibly raised. But those friends aren't the ones I can spend time with.

Someday this will change, but until then, I don't know what to do.

Despite all that, though, I'm grateful to have a couple things/people in my life that make me genuinely happy. I want to surround myself with such things and such people. I need to be patient but it's so hard to be.

[vientoeste]

I understand exactly how you feel. It is a basic human need to feel at home with some group of people, and us HLers are blessed to have connected up with some great people who feel like we do about life.

I have found it helpful when dealing with people who can be hard to be around if I come to expect that they will be ____ (insert description: a princess, boy-crazy, shallow, etc) then I am not dissapointed when they act that way. So, assuming you have some things worth talking about with them, you can go into a conversation with Jane and Suzy, knowing they're going to freak out about college and which boys are hot, and you'll just enjoy them for what they are. Then you can get on AIM or the phone and have a real conversation with me or your choice of the many other fabulous HL girls.

I'm glad you do have some points of happiness in your life: cling to those and you'll make it. Patience is incredibly hard, I know.

<3
B