Please wake me up... I'm living in a nightmare...

[veredgf]

It's far far worse... I've just finished another crying session. I cry, calm down, cry again, calm down and I feel utterly alone...

Yesterday my new immediate boss told me that IThead is barring me from winning any tender I apply for, and that the person who will come and get the new tender will have most of my system responsibilities passed on to

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[starbuck42]

I don't think you're depressing. I believe you need a place to rant and this is the best place to do it. We're here to support you and tell you that you're such a good person. You are, V, remember? I know it's been a long time since we had a chat back when I was on Creative, but you were always so nice with me and so funny and understanding.

Thank you and remember. HUGS!

[veredgf]

gush - thanks girl - trully so *kiss*
I'm just tryin' to figure out how this sort of thing can happn if you try to be good... I just dunno...

[veredgf]

aww, thanks, thanks *kiss*

[leiascully]

Is there any way you can get a new job? What about that friend of yours?

[veredgf]

I strated looking at jobs again yesterday - the problem is that the jobs are either for basic technician jobs which pay badly and usually I can do much more than that, or for system positions which require skills I don't have and very few, if any positions that suit my experience which is technician/backup system... the other issue is me bein' a mom and many of these jobs require lots of overtime, and finally the issue is that I'm studying and it's hard to find a job that will fit in with that ... and still pay somethin' decent...

I did speak with my friend cause I heard nothin and he said that so far he thinks that nothing has happened... but he also said there might be another position I could take and he's just waiting for the tender to be open to external workers and he will pass my CV for that position too. I'm just not tryin' to count of this and get my hopes up cause I might fall too low...

HUGS honey - thanks.

[leiascully]

I know it's got to be crazy. You've got all sorts of skills! Those jobs are tough to reconcile with being a mom. But I wish you the best of luck! Mwah.

[stiffleaves]

I don't have much to say but *HUGS* & you know, V, if at some point it gets so bad that you can't take it anymore, or if it does come to an end in another way, maybe that's just the way things are meant to be? It's obviously beyond your control, and what I find comforting in situations like that is to believe that things do happen for a reason.
Anyway, I don't know if you're the kind of person to believe in those things, but, anyway, I hope it's a strengthening thought.
Much love!

[veredgf]

I try to think this way, but lately too many things have shown that it's hard to understand the reason behind all of this... I feel like they've broken my spirit....

Thanks girl.

[stiffleaves]

Yes, it is sometimes impossible to see the reason behind something (I know this only too well, believe me), but just because we don't see it, or because things haven't yet gotten to the point where we can see it, doesn't necessarily mean it's not there.

I'm sure they haven't broken your spirit, V, if they had, I doubt you could even muster the energy to be so angry. :)

*HUGS*

[memento1]

Boy do I feel stupid for my previous comment. This is why I shouldn't fall behind on my friends list. That really, really sucks, V. Gawd, they're never gonna let you get ANYWHERE in that job, are they? They're all against you! I can't help thinking you should go back to that other job offer, if this one is so obviously a dead end.