Please wake me up... I'm living in a nightmare...
It's far far worse... I've just finished another crying session. I cry, calm down, cry again, calm down and I feel utterly alone...
Yesterday my new immediate boss told me that IThead is barring me from winning any tender I apply for, and that the person who will come and get the new tender will have most of my system responsibilities passed on to him.
My immediate boss then went on to tell me that I have to prepare for this cause things will not be great for me, but that eventually he will make sure that most of the basic support issues will be handled by the other technician and the helpdesk girl, while him and I will be handling various projects... and that's providing I stick by him and accept the hard times to come...
I asked him if IThead said specifically that I won't be doin' my system responsibilities anymore... he seemed to hesitate but eventually said that yes, that IThead said that...
Today I spoke with my friend, the sys admin, and I learnt that it wasn't IThead who asked that my system responsibilities be transferred to the new person who will come... it was my immediate boss!!! Bad enough that this is happening, but to realise my immediate boss lied to me???!!! and that's after he appeared to care for me and as if he'd save me from the boredom to come...
and it's bad, cause just about a week or so ago we had a dreadful argument and he threatened me that if I'd dare go over his head, that I will pay the price... not that it matters, since IThead will probably hand him my head on a platter, and probably toss him a knife and fork in the process...
So I can't confront him and I can't trust him and my job is goin' down the drain, and I'm falling to bits and I don't think I can take much of this any longer... I don't think I can...
sorry for bein such an awful depressing person lately...
Thanks to
leiascully,
stiffleaves &
starbuck42 for bein' there... I know there's nothin' you can do, but am feelin' so lonely - so your words mean a lot.
Yesterday my new immediate boss told me that IThead is barring me from winning any tender I apply for, and that the person who will come and get the new tender will have most of my system responsibilities passed on to him.
My immediate boss then went on to tell me that I have to prepare for this cause things will not be great for me, but that eventually he will make sure that most of the basic support issues will be handled by the other technician and the helpdesk girl, while him and I will be handling various projects... and that's providing I stick by him and accept the hard times to come...
I asked him if IThead said specifically that I won't be doin' my system responsibilities anymore... he seemed to hesitate but eventually said that yes, that IThead said that...
Today I spoke with my friend, the sys admin, and I learnt that it wasn't IThead who asked that my system responsibilities be transferred to the new person who will come... it was my immediate boss!!! Bad enough that this is happening, but to realise my immediate boss lied to me???!!! and that's after he appeared to care for me and as if he'd save me from the boredom to come...
and it's bad, cause just about a week or so ago we had a dreadful argument and he threatened me that if I'd dare go over his head, that I will pay the price... not that it matters, since IThead will probably hand him my head on a platter, and probably toss him a knife and fork in the process...
So I can't confront him and I can't trust him and my job is goin' down the drain, and I'm falling to bits and I don't think I can take much of this any longer... I don't think I can...
sorry for bein such an awful depressing person lately...
Thanks to
leiascully,
stiffleaves &
starbuck42 for bein' there... I know there's nothin' you can do, but am feelin' so lonely - so your words mean a lot.