I feel like I am not in the same school as I have been going to. Everything feels so different. Actually, it feels more like I am on the outside looking in. I walk around and see people yet I feel totally isolated like nobody can see me. I can be surrounded by people yet feel vastly alone. It's an incredibly odd feeling, like I am a ghost or ( Read more... )

I was in such a bad mood last night. It's been happening more and more. I am pretty sure it's because of having this single, but I really have to get used to being on my own since I will have to live like this for years, possibly the rest of my life. I had an interesting discussion about friends the other day, and maybe that is what set off this ( Read more... )

I feel empty and nothing seems to fill it. I wish I knew how to stop this.

Yeah I know I haven't posted in a while. I just didn't feel like talking about anything I have been feeling lately. Classes start tomarrow and I'm a bit nervous. I dropped one of my senior projects to pick one up with a different teacher. I saw that one of my roomates was in the class and I asked her about it today. She said she is dropping it ( Read more... )

I'm in a bit better of a mood now, but probly not for long. I went over to Dimitri's again tonight. We blew up some plastic cups and pop cans but not much. Then we played a game called Set that is sponsored by mensa. I don't recommend playing this game at 3am since you're supposed to have quick reflexes in it. After my brain farted too much to play ( Read more... )

I feel sick. Like that kind of sick that is mental but you feel it physically. Where your stomach is trying to come up through your throat and you feel as though your chest has been ripped open. Why am I so depressed lately? I am hoping this will get better when shoocl starts... but I don't see how.

So, I walkin to the party and when I get like half a block away, I see like 20 people walkin towards me, Pratt kids of coure. So I'm like "Hmmmm.. what is going on?" Then I turn the corner and see about 30 people are more standing out front of the building. So I go up and ring the buzzer and Trevor came down and let me in. Apparently the cops ( Read more... )

Ok! Internet is alive. The power must have gone out cause both monitor and comp were off. So please ignore the distress in the last post lol. And so now apparently the party is goin on so I think I will go. I will be back soon if it sucks heh.

Well, I feel a lot more accomplished today. I got out of my room before 2:00pm! Whoo! Yesterday I bought curtains but couldn't find any curtain rods that I liked, so today I went to Pier 1 Imports and found the perfect ones! They were $25 each so I didn't bother going lamp shopping after that. I will go lamp shopping when I get my checks this ( Read more... )

Ugh! I feel like shit. I went to bed at 4am and got up at 10:30, but it was cold and looked all gross out and no one was on IRC and nothing was on TV so I went back to bed even though I wasn't tired. Repeat 4x until 2:30. It is still cold and gross out and there is just nothing to do. I suppose I should do my laundry since I was going to do that ( Read more... )