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vampirequeen

Which path should I take?

Nov 15, 2009 20:36

I just got back from and incredible and exstreamely enlighting Dark Goddess Retreat with MG. I really help me face my worse fears and understand some of the things that are making me unhappy. Lol. I can not and should not expect the lone wolf to change for me. Nor should I change myself in order to accmodate said sistuation. I have yet again ( Read more... )

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sandrak November 16 2009, 04:53:36 UTC

I'm so sorry life is painful right now. I wish you strength, love of self, and the knowledge that you _are_ the Goddess, at all times.

Thank you my Sister vampirequeen November 16 2009, 05:26:30 UTC

Thank you. I have been struggling with this issue of I am unhappy with my relationship and I have with in my power with out losing myself too it to make it work. The true fear that I fear the most is to be alone and unloved. Sometimes writing it out and sending it out to the universe helps in processing it. I really do appreciate your support and insight. It is great comfort.

Re: Thank you my Sister sandrak November 16 2009, 20:49:05 UTC

Make sure you put yourself as top priority. The relationship cannot thrive if you don't. And sometimes it cannot thrive even if you do. Make sure to stay aware of what you do and don't have the power to change, and of what you do and don't have the power to really be happy with.

aoibhill November 16 2009, 05:36:05 UTC

I know these are things you've had on your mind for a long, long time. I'm really proud of those things you are doing for yourself. You are changing and growing, trying new things and building community. While you may feel stagnant in your relationship, you, yourself have been blossoming.

I wish you the best for finding your way through. I love ya girlie!

Thanks Sweetie! vampirequeen November 16 2009, 17:46:18 UTC

I really do appreciate it! I have been in something like a egg shell or chrysalis for the last year in 1/2 and I am just starting to feel like I am getting ready to break free of it. I had many things that I just kept pushing to the back of my head and kept telling myself that it is just me over reacting and to just get over it. I have come to the conclusion that I need to stop doing things for others and start doing the same things for myself Once I break free, I really feel the world that I created around me is wonderful and will expand with me, but certain things are choosing to be left behind, due the fact that they don't want to grow or change. Thou it will hurt for me to say or do so, but in order for me to expand, spread and learn how to use my wings I must leave the shelter of the nest and fly. In doing so I will leave various things behind me. There are three things that I have figured out that are holding me back from just up and flying away and they are fear of being alone, fear of being forgotten, and fear of the ( ... )

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Thanks & Hugs! vampirequeen November 16 2009, 17:42:05 UTC

I really do appreciate the offer. It is really tempting to quick my job and run away for a while, but alas there is that responsible side of my personality that is holding me back form doing so. Writing down my feelings and expressing them to the universe is helping me process it. I think my biggest anger is at myself at having settled for comfortable instead of something that is a little harder and would force me to grow. I have always gone for the safe even thou that isn't really what I needed at the time. I don't blame the boy for any of these feeling he has been nothing but supportive, but I am not sure he is the one primary for me. He has done a lot of his own growing and is happy with were he is. Unfortunately, I it isn't where I need to go the path that has been shown to me by several of the Goddesses show a single path that I must travel alone for now. I am going to ask MG to assist me in a personal ritual to help me figure out what path I must take to reach my goals and if it must be taken alone? This Retreat has been ( ... )