love is just a bloodsport

[vaginasandsuch]

so not even five minutes ago i slid out of my chair and sat on the floor in the middle of the floor. and i felt tears coming. i had no idea why, and i just sat there crying for like a minute and a half, confused out of my mind

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[vaginasandsuch]

thank you hun! {hugsback}
you're right, i should enjoy it while i can. =) love you too.

[vaginasandsuch]

people prefer to make others feel bad about things that they themselves feel bad about.
thanks love. {snugs}

[vaginasandsuch]

definitely agreed.
i once dated someone who hated attention. i just couldn't fathom it... hence, why we didn't work so well together.
but yea, one can only get so many "you're such an attention whore"s before one starts to really consider it.
thank you.

[aswarmofsharks]

It doesn't happen to me often, but sometimes I'll just randomly start crying. There's usually an underlying reason, but I'll leave that for my therapist to figure out. -.-

I completely feel you on the self-acceptance issue. You're most definitely not alone in that one. You shouldn't feel negatively for loving attention. I love being in the limelight [preferably on stage].

:// I hope your hand feels better. I don't get cramps, it just goes numb. Woot carpal tunnel.

I'm not really sure what to say on this situation with Louis, but I get where you're coming from with not getting a reaction from someone. My closest friend isn't very open about his feelings / showing emotion. You usually have to pry it out of him or wait until he breaks down / gets pushed to the edge. I'm used to it, though. He's been like that for years. We get on well because I talk & ramble too much, and he just sort of listens and takes it in, but it would be nice for advice / SOMETHING every now and then, so I feel you.

[vaginasandsuch]

yea, i usually know why i'm crying so this was very different.
it's like nina hartley said: "you can't be happy until you accept yourself. stop looking for someone to make you whole." i heart her, madly.
are you in theater? music? what do you do on stage?
and thanks, mee too. =)
yea, you get used to it after a while, but sometimes it would be great to have some feedback. {nods}

[aswarmofsharks]

That's a quote our entire generation could use. And it's utterly true. But I must confess I don't know who Nina Hartley is. <.< [googles her]
I'm a spoken word artist & I perform my writing on the stage. I'm a total geek for it. <3
Anddd no problem. :]

[vaginasandsuch]

Nina Hartley is like one of the most amazing people i've met. she's just awesome. ex-stripper, still a porn star, writes books on sex guides, is full of energy and love. i love her. she came to talk at my school last week and i haven't been the same since. =D
that's really awesome! Sounds exciting.

[devoutjoobjoob]

Ah, the random cry, I know it well. I dunno, sometimes you just need to let it out is all I can say.
Regardless, you should go to the doctor about your hand, wrist, arm- I think it might be carpet tunnels [yes carpet tunnels]. =\
I've got nothing 'deep' or of intellectual mutters to say but feel better, think about some happy things C=
+good hump vibes+

[devoutjoobjoob]

I AM THE ONLY ONE THAT DID NOT GET A RESPONSE AGAIN. I AM DEEPLY OFFENDED
+SCRATCHES+ DEEPLY!
DON'T BE SADDDDDD NOOOOOEEEESSS.

[vaginasandsuch]

lmao, clearly i hate you.

[devoutjoobjoob]

Clearly.
But I love you =(