This sucks. One minute I think I'm fine and doin good and the next I get so depressed I can't even eat my dinner. I've barley eaten and have to drug myself to sleep. I haven't cried today, that's a step I guess. But, the day's not over so, its still possible. Cortnye said she was gonna try and bring me my ring tomorrow. I'm looking forward to it ( Read more... )

Sup everybody? Nothing much here. Jennifer just messaged me. Nothing to surprising about that. *rolls eyes* But, anyways, not much went on today. Got chinese with Shannon and went to the mall till about 5. Other than I was in class in all day. Yay right...blah. It's so boring in there, I can hardly stand it. I'm gonna find someway to listen to my ( Read more... )

Ok, it's time for a real update of my journal. Nothing much really going on. I'm really hungry though.....I haven't eaten a whole lot since Thursday. I just haven't felt hungry. But, otherwise i'm good. I think I have accepted what happened. With the help of Shannon and his wisdom that surpasses his age. He has help me through yet again. Thank you ( Read more... )

Some people don't have some of my contact information I have noticed so, here it is, everyway to get in touch with me. Here we goes:

AOL Instant Messenger SN: uzielstrife

MSN Messenger and hotmail address: coldhandshotheart@hotmail.com

Yahoo! Messenger and Yahoo! E-mail: uzielstrife add @yahoo.com for e-mail

Home Phone #: 704-434-7289 <----- ( Read more... )

Hey everyone. Well, today was ok. The benadryl finally wore off around 2:30 when I went to eat lunch. I decided I didn't want to be in that class today so I walked from CCC to the mall. Only took about 20 minutes. I walked around and goofed off. Bought a game with the money I had on me. I had to get something to try and occupy my mind. It's the ( Read more... )

Thought I would post a for a few days so as to let everyone know that I am alright. Last night wasn't all that bad actually. Of course it probably helped that I knocked my self out with Benadryl too. I took like...*thinks* Oh it doesn't matter. It's still effecting me though and the screen is a little blurry. But, that's all good. I have to be at ( Read more... )

Well...gosh. Cortnye just broke up with me....I didn't even get to tell her anything. But, I guess it's best now. I'm sad yes and it hurts but, it's not really surprising. When your just not worthy of something, you can't keep it. I'll always love her, i'll always have a special place in my heart just for her and everything we shared. But, sadly, ( Read more... )

Hey there everyone. Feeling a little down this morning but, i'm alright. It's my first morning at CCC and i'm not looking forward to it. It sucks, really bad, I don't wanna go. Mostly because I didn't sleep all that great last night and I feel like I might cuss someone out today either way. But, i'll try my best not to and i'm sure I won't. But yea ( Read more... )

Hey...everyone...I'm just posting to tell you guys that I have a new number. 704-434-5996. So, call me that if you ever want to get a hold of me. Bye, I guess.

My easter was a really good easter for once. No fighting family, no noisey little children, none of what I normally expect from an easter. But, that's because I spent it with Cortnye and most of her family today. Her parents got me this M&M mug with easter M&Ms in it....it almost made me cry cause, my own parents didn't get me anything or even tell ( Read more... )