oh hey there LJ...sorry i've forgotten about you. anyhow i probably could spend a day updating you but alas i will not, all you need to know is that i'm hopeful and happy. the light at the end of the tunnel is getting brighter.

i typed this with one hand.

so im thinking of making a move to sd. theres a lot more jobs and you can find cheaper rent...its just a thought right now and it wouldnt happen for a few months...but ill probably start applying for some jobs and see what happens. i need to make stuff happen and i need to get my own place before i lose all sanity.

i hate that it bothers me this much.
i hate that i cant stop thinking about it.

i hate it.

sometimes i think it would just be easier to walk away.

its been awhile...

pretty much same stuff going on...not that thats a bad thing. i have a lot of plans for the future, interested to see how they all pan out!

life is pretty good right about now.

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im bored.
with life.

i feel on the verge of tears everyday because of stress, redundancy and well im just TIRED.

i need a vacation and HOPEFULLY that can pull me through this.

i really wish there wasnt a drug cartel war going on in mexico so i could rent the cute house i found on the beach in rosarito.

whatever today (this week) sucks.

i feel like the world is moving at this insane speed around me and im just standing here...and i have no idea how to start moving or which way to go.

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