Things have been quite crazy as of late. Months, weeks, days have past and thoughts have been peircing my brain. And I have come to the understanding that I can not continue living the life that I am currently living ( Read more... )

So yeah Loran celebrated his 21st birthday Friday, and I had a party for him at midnight! We had a effing house full of people here too. I decorated the house and bought pizza and pop and some special "drinks" for loran ( Read more... )

All I am going to say because I am just so burned out and emotinally hurt, are these few things ( Read more... )

So yeah it has been awhile since I have updated. Been working alot. and it is christmas so I have been shopping I really need to wrap some presents and get the rest of the ornaments up on the tree ( Read more... )

So I went and saw A History Of Violence last night. 9:50pm showing. It was a real good movie, I went and saw it due to it being it's last night at the theater. It was not what I expected but it was a really good movie. The movie is about Tom Stall. Tom is a loving family man and pretty well respected man of a small town. But when two mobsters show ( Read more... )

I hate being fucked up. I hate scaring people. I hate not being able to control my emotions. I hate pushing my friends away. I do that so they don't pull or push first. I hate how people can't understand me and my mental illnesses.( I have more then just Bi-polar) I fucking hate it too. What hurts most and fucks me in the end, is when someone pulls ( Read more... )

I think I am going to close my self off! I am just wasted space!

So everyone is getting ready for the big party today! So if you read this and you are coming please give me a call ( Read more... )

So I came home from being down state today. Saturday was my sisters late birthday/halloween party, and my brothers halloween party. Saw all their friends and my great aunt marie and uncle herb, adopted dad's side of the family. Also saw my favorite aunt in the world , my aunt Carolin. Apparently she had a tubular pregnancy (A tubular pregnancy ( Read more... )

My friend Andrew called me from San Bernadino California :0 because H.I.M was playing and he called so I could hear the first song. What a sweet friend *wag* I am so happy! yay yay yay from my friend andrew ( Read more... )