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[Sweethearts week Fanfic and Fancomic] 'Cause you're my family
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Title: 'Cause you're my family. Chapter 3: Finding you
Genre: Angst/romance/Au
Pairing(s): UsxUk/ Franada
Word Count: 5278
Rating/Warnings: G?
Summary: Three years after they meet again. Will Alfred be forgiven?
Chapter 3: Finding you
Three years had passed since Alfred left, three long and sad years.
That day, exactly three years after he left, an 18 years old Alfred Jones woke up and had a strange feeling, like something was going to happen.
- Maybe I drank too much last night? - He yawned and got out of bed, directly to the shared bathroom.
He was now staying at a boarding house in the United States of America, he had finally got to America, but when he arrived, he realized he was completely lost. The U.S.A was sure a big country. So many states so much land. Also, he had nothing but his clothes when he arrived, so he had to find a way to get money. Fortunately a man hired him to help him. In three years he had learnt how to be a mechanic, and now he was working as one for a big French company.
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In the airport, a young blonde man had just arrived to the United States.
- I wonder if I will be able to find you-
And with that the man left the airport.
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- Alfred, can you help me with these?-
- Coming!-
- Thanks. Hey Al, You wanna go drink with us tonight?-
- Again?-
- Of course! You’re eighteen now man, now that you can drink legally you have to do it-
- Maybe you’re right, but… I’m not in the mood for drinking today- He sighed
- What happens to you today Alfred?! You look like a dumped man, and you don’t even have a girlfriend nor had one. - The big man chuckled and Alfred tried, but it ended sounding really sad.
- Sorry, it’s just… today’s not a good day, that’s all. I’ll be okay tomorrow-
- If you say so, but, just so you know we will be in the same place we were yesterday-
- Thanks-
Alfred went back to what he was fixing before and stayed unnaturally quiet.
- Hey Alfred! - His boss entered the garage
- Here I am Sir! Is there something you need from me?-
- Are you busy now? - Alfred looked back at the car he was fixing, and then shook his head
- Just fixing a car sir, but I’m almost finished.-
- Good, because I have to give you a task- Alfred frowned
- A Task?-
- Yeah, and a very important one. You see, I need someone to go pick some car parts from this store- he showed Alfred an address- They’re very important, so I chose you, because you’re my most reliable employee- Alfred, despite being depressed, felt proud of himself
- Wow, Thanks sir, then… I’m going. See you later- and, taking the paper with the address, Alfred left the garage.
- Wow boss, you really now how to cheer people!-
- And that’s only the start-
- What do you mean sir?-
- Ah, I didn’t send him only to pick those parts- when his employee looked at him with a curious face he smirked- You’ll see, that bastard is the best cheering people up-
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“Alfred please go here as well, I need you to get something for me. If you show this paper to the shop assistant he will give you what you have to bring to me. Thanks!” it’s what was written at the bottom of the paper the boss had given him.
- Well, it’s in the way to work, so it won’t hurt - he was now standing in front of said shop.
He opened the door carefully, it was a small shop and there were very… rare things in the walls, many of which Alfred supposed what they were for, but he wouldn’t dare to ask.
- em… ‘ello? I’m here to get something my boss ordered, he told me to show this paper so you would know what that thing he asked was…- told Alfred to the shop assistant.
The man looked at the paper and then at Alfred.
- So you’re Alfred. Wait here, I’ll go get the boss- and then the man disappeared behind a door that, Alfred supposed, lead to some kind of office.
What had he gotten himself into? And how did that guy know his name?
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- According to Arthur’s notes, it’s here… but I’m not very sure- said the blonde from the airport looking at the same shop Alfred was looking a few minutes ago.- Maybe I should go look around again. Maybe I’m mistaken-
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- Alfred was starting to get impatient; it had been at lest 3 minutes since the assistant left and there hadn’t been anything that left him feel that they knew he was still here.
And then, the back door opened.
- Nice to see you again, dear America- Alfred jumped from surprise. It couldn’t be, he knew that voice, it was…
- Francis!-
- The one and only dear Alfred, the one and only-
Francis looked now more mature than before, and, as Alfred thought that, he also thought it was obvious. Even he himself had changed in three years. Now Francis had a little beard in his chin and he was taller. Also, his clothes were now the ones of a big businessman but his hair was still long (for being a man that is).
- Wow America, you sure have grown a lot. I didn’t remember you this tall and well-built. Also, now you are pretty handsome too. Arthur would be really proud if he saw you like this- at Arthur’s mention Alfred sulked again- Oh, but let’s not talk about the past, why don’t you stay a bit and take tea with me?-
- I don’t think so my boss is waiting for me-
- Oh, don’t worry about that, he knew I knew you and I already told him I would be keeping you for myself for a while. He works for me, after all.- Francis winked at Alfred and motioned him to go with him. But, before Alfred could move, the entrance door opened.
- Excuse me, is here…? - But the “customer” stopped in his track when he saw who was in the shop- Brother?-
- Mathew?-
- What a nice surprise! - Said Francis with a knowing smile in his face
- You planned this Francis?-
- Maybe, but, won’t you come in Mathew, I think your brother is eager to hug you-
Mathew entered the shop, still with a look of shock in his face, and walked until his was in front of Alfred.
- Mathew, I…-
Mathew slapped him and Francis chuckled. Mathew’s eyes were teary when Alfred looked again at them.
- You’re an idiot Brother- and then Mathew hugged him. Alfred smiled and hugged him back.
- Is good to see you again Matt-
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- And what have you been doing this three years Alfred?-
The three of them were enjoying something Alfred had long forgotten existed: Afternoon tea. Also, he hadn’t eaten good cookies since he got there; he had no money to spend them on such things.
- Working. I mean, when I came here I brought no money with me- Mathew and Francis sweat dropped, but they thought that was kind of an Alfred thing to say.- And what have you guys been doing? I mean, I suppose you Mathew finished school, but I’m curious about what did you do after that, besides of coming here I mean.
- Well, I want to study medicine, so Brother Arthur said he would pay the college for me. I have to go back to London for that, though-
- Then why are you here, in America?-
- I came to visit Brother Francis, since I finished school with the top school honors, Arthur said I could were I would want to go, and when I told him I wanted to come here, Brother Francis said I could stay with him- then his cheeks flushed, but Alfred didn’t pay much attention to that
- I knew you were going to be the best student Matt! Congratulations! - He then gave another hug to Mathew- And you Francis? What are you doing here?-
- Don’t you remember my family owns a lot of companies out in the world? Well, that one company where you work is one of those, so I’m here to take care of it for a while.-
- Really? Wow, didn’t knew you were my upper boss, why didn’t you contact me before?! I would have been really happy to see you!-
- Oh, I didn’t know you worked for me until you boss told me some Alfred Jones was really upset today and that he wanted me to cheer you up- Alfred’s cheeks turned red with that- So, Why were you so upset today? Money? Friends? Or perhaps… Love?-
- No, nothing like that, It’s just today’s not a good day for me, nothing more- Mathew also looked down hearing those worlds. Oh, he remembered perfectly what day this was.
- Arthur must be suffering a lot now- mumbled Mathew
- What did you say Mathieu? - asked Francis. Oh, but Alfred had heard, and his heart ached at those words.
- Nothing! Just talking to myself- Mathew noticed that Alfred was down again, so he tried to change the subject- And tell me Al, where are you living now?-
- Eh? Oh, in a boarding house not far from here. Why do you ask?-
- No reason really, just wondering- but he sighed in relief, when Alfred said he had no money he thought that he was living in the streets.
- Say Alfred, wouldn’t you want to live with me? My house too big for me alone, not that Mathew is no company but he will be staying only for a month- asked Francis with a smile on his face. Alfred looked disbelievingly
- You mean that?-
- Of course, a gentleman never lies about those things-
- Yes! That would be awesome! Thanks Francis!-
- You’re welcome-
Mathew smiled happily, that meant he would be living, if only for a month, with his beloved brother again, like when they lived with Arthur.
That thought brought back the sadness from before.
- Alfred, may I ask you something?-
- Sure Francis-
- Did you find what you came looking for? - With that Alfred’s smile disappeared
- Reality is, I got lost when I arrived. And, even if I sent that guy Alfred a lot of letters, he never answered them. He probably moved before they arrived. Also, I tried looking in the phone guide, but there are a lot of Alfred Jones here in America, so no, I haven’t found him- now he had the same eyes Mathew had when no letter arrived back when they sent that first letter. He looked hopeless.
- Oh, sorry about that-
- No need to be sorry Francis, it’s not your fault- but still, Alfred looked depressed.- Well, I think I’m going back to my work, boss has to be waiting for the things he asked-
- Oh, right, then see you later lad. Come here when you finish working, so I can show you where the house is-
- Sure. See you later Matt, Francis- And he was gone
- You should tell Arthur you found him-
- Thanks Brother Francis-
- What for?-
- For everything-
-You mean taking care of him from now on?-
- That and for finding him-
- Oh, that’s nothing Mathieu, it was a coincidence I found him. Also I would do anything for you Love- and they kissed each other
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Francis lived in a big blue house in the center of New York; it was not as near to his job as the boarding house, but it was far more comfortable. Also there was the fact that it was “free”, since Francis had so much money he said he would pay for everything.
- Well, I leave you to arrange your things in your new room. Hope it’s of your like-
- Anything would do for me Francis, thanks-
- No problem-
He opened the door and looked at his new bedroom. The walls were blue with a white stripe in the part near the floor. Also it was really big. It had a wood wardrobe and a desk. Then there was the bed, a big comfy bed. Alfred left his belongings aside and jumped to his new bed. He really had missed the feeling of a comfy bed.
Someone knocked at the door.
- Come in! - Alfred stood up; ready to welcome anyone that was there.
- Don’t worry, it’s me- said his brother, and Alfred relaxed
- Matt, come in; take seat- he took seat in the bed and patting his side, motioning Mathew to sit beside him. The other did as told and sat beside his twin, putting the teddy bear he carried with him these days in his lap.
They stayed silence for a couple of minutes, and then Alfred spoke.
- How’s he doing? - Mathew looked at his twin, surprised at first, then looked down, a sad smile in his face
- Fine, I think. He’s studying laws now; he’s pretty good at it you know? You would be surprised if you saw him in the practice cases-
- Really? I always thought he would study something in the scientific area-
- No, at the end he chose to study laws.-
Then the silence fell again
- He would be very proud of you if he saw you now, you know?-
- Francis told me the same-
- Ah- silence again- Say Alfred, I’m curious about something… How did you get here? You said you had no money-
- Oh, that- Alfred smiled a goofy smile- I stowed away in a merchandise ship. It was really fun, although I had to work in the ship when they found me.-
- You idiot, what would you have done if the decided they would throw you to the ocean? - Alfred looked thoughtful for a while, and then smiled.
- Don’t know, but that didn’t happen so there’s no use in worrying-
- Jeez, you may look older but you’re still a child in the inside- Alfred smiled in his own, childish way. And Mathew’s anger went away for a while. He knew Alfred was like that anyway.
Then he turned serious again.
- He was destroyed when he found you escaped, you know? We all were, but Arthur was the one that suffered the most. He thought it was his fault- Mathew looked away; he didn’t want his brother to feel he was scolding him or something, but he had to say it. He would explode if he didn’t - He looked for you like crazy for almost three months, asking every police in the city to look for you. He went out everyday from after school till midnight looking for you. Even when we and Francis gave up, he still continued searching for you. The only way we could make him sleep was giving him sleeping pills, but even with that he woke up in the middle of the night screaming for you. He had nightmares everyday. - Now Mathew had started crying
- Matt… I’m so sorry, I didn’t…-
- Don’t! If you say something now I won’t be able to tell you everything- Mathew inhaled deep and continued- After those three horrible first months, Arthur never was the same. He isolated from friends, the only one that remained was Francis. His grades never went down though- at this he chuckled sadly- But now he was cold, and his eyes never showed true happiness, even if he tried to fake it, we were able to see through his fake. He started drinking too, a lot. He went to the bar almost every night. He suffered so much… His eyes had no light anymore. And he was always looking at the mail, like waiting. But, after a year or two, he just stopped looking at the mail with hope, he looked more broken than ever. But now he had armor around him, no one could approach his heart. Still he let me come here, even if he knew the loneliness was going to be darker. He said I was older enough and that it was time for me to fly, I was older enough. I hope he’s okay now-
When Mathew finished, Alfred was crying and with his hand in his hands. His heart aching so much he felt like it was going to break.
- Why are you telling me this Matt?-
- Because I think you owe to know-
Silence again. Then Mathew stood up. And Alfred, even in his sorrow, admired how changed his beloved twin was. He had his hair longer; it was as long as Francis’, and his figure, different from his own, was slender. His skin was paler than his own too. And there was something in him that made him look very mature. There was no hint of the child he knew so well.
- See you at dinner Alfred- and Alfred was left alone with his suffering.
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Many days had passed, now there was only a week left of Mathew’s vacation. That month had been the best in Alfred’s three past years. Even if Mathew had avoided him the first days after their talk, it had been awesome to spend time with him and Francis when Mathew started talking to him again.
- I forgive you, but only because I can’t hate you Al- told him Mathew after a few days- But it won’t be that easy to get Arthur’s forgiveness-
- I know. Thanks Bro-
And after that things had gotten better and better. He also found out his brother and Francis were a couple now. In fact, they’d been going out for two years now. They were going to celebrate their two year anniversary this week, so there had been a lot of preparations that week. He was invited of course.
- Do you want me to go with you to buy a suit, dear Alfred?-
- You would do that for me Francis? That would be great; I don’t know a thing about suits and stuff like that-
- Then I feel more obliged to go with you, I can let one of my very important guests to be bad dressed-
- Thanks, I suppose-
- - -
- Then you’re coming?-
- Of course I am Mathew, I wouldn’t miss such an important occasion.-
- Thanks Arthur! I love you Brother-
- I love you too Mathew, you know that- there was a silence at the other side of the phone- Had you found him?-
Mathew gulped
- N-No, America’s really big and I haven’t been out that much. Sorry Arthur- he hated telling lies to his brother, but it was supposed to be a surprise for him. Besides, Arthur would probably find an excuse if he told him Alfred was going.
- I see. Guess you’re right, sorry for asking you that; it’s probably hurtful for you too-
- don’t worry, I understand- Mathew smiled sadly as he knew Arthur was probably crying at the other side of the phone
- Then, see you in two days Mathew-
- See you-
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They had already finished shopping and Alfred almost had a heart attack at the prices. He knew Francis had money, but he didn’t know he liked so expensive shops.
- I promise I will pay you for this Francis!-
- Don’t worry, take it as a gift for the many birthdays that I gave you nothing-
- But that’s not fair… You couldn’t have given me anything; you didn’t know were I was. Also, I didn’t give you something too.-
- Just keep it Alfred. You’re not supposed to complain when someone’s giving you a gift-
- But…-
- Shhh, besides, I’m not doing this only for you- Francis winked at him- But, you could ask me a question as payment for the suit, if you want-
- Ask what you want-
- Well then, I’ll go to the point. Do you still love Arthur? - Francis looked at him in the eye with a very serious look
Alfred blushed
- What are you talking about Francis, of course…-
- Be honest, I will know if you’re lying- Alfred sighed
- Yes, My heart still beats faster when I hear about him-
- That’s good- Alfred looked at him like he had grown a second head
- Good? What part of it is good? Arthur probably hates me now-
- It’s true you have reasons to think that, but believe, he does not hate you. Even if he yells you he does, he doesn’t. In fact, I think he still loves you, even after all that you did-
- Are you joking? Even I would hate myself if I were him-
- But you’re not. Now listen to me, and listen very carefully- Alfred nodded, gulping at Francis’ menacing look- You’ll have just one chance to mend what you did, if you waste, then it’s over. So be sure not to screw that opportunity-
- A chance to mend everything? What are you talking about, I’m not going to England, I would probably only cause him more suffering-
- Maybe, but only at first. You’ll be surprised to see how much he longs for you, Alfred. So be sure to do it right-
- I don’t know what you’re talking about Francis, but I swear that if I had just one chance to be with Arthur, I would take it without a doubt-
- That’s what I wanted to hear, be sure to keep that promise, if not, I, myself, will make sure you regret it-
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Finally the big day had come.
And Alfred never thought he would see so many familiar faces again. Apart from his workmates, he had seen some of his old schoolmates in the party. God, he had even seen some of his old teachers! But he has seen not sight from Arthur, and that had him a bit depressed. On the other hand, maybe it was better for him that Arthur had not come; maybe they weren’t destined to be together. Beside, what would he tell him if he saw him? “Sorry Arthur, Forgive me please”? No way would Arthur forgive him that way. “Sorry Arthur, I love you, would you be with me?” Arthur probably would hit him for idiot and the run away.
- Jeez, there’s no way he’ll forgive me, I’m doomed-
- Alfred! - He turned his head, looking for the person that had called him
- Francis! Haven’t seen you since the party started. There sure is a lot of people- commented Alfred with a little smile
- But you are missing one face right? Don’t worry; did you think I wouldn’t invite my other brother in law? Arthur would kill me-
- So, He’s here?-
- Right- Alfred started looking everywhere, trying to spot Arthur somewhere
- Hey, easy Romeo, Don’t worry, you’ll find him eventually-
- But what if he doesn’t want to see me? - Francis sighed
- Then you follow him until he wants to; believe he does want to see you. So be brave and don’t forget your promise-
- Right- but he already looked anxious and depressed
- Look, calm down. And while you’re at it, accompany me get some drinks for us-
- Sure, why not-
He was really enjoying the party; Francis sure had a lot of money. And, by how it looked, he loved Mathew from the bottom of his heart. He had never left him alone until now, and that was only because he went to get them some drinks.
- And how’re you doing Mathew? Are you happy?-
- Oh ye, of course. Francis is such a good person; I can’t believe we are still together- said Mathew with red cheeks
- I wouldn’t have leave him be with you if I wasn’t sure he was Mathew-
- Thanks brother-
- No need to thank me Mathew, that’s what brothers do, isn’t it?- and then again there was a sad look in his eyes, but Mathew said nothing about it
- Yeah, you’re right- then Mathew smiled- And, now that we’re talking about brotherhood favors, would you accompany me Arthur?- Arthur frowned, he knew Matt was planning something, but he didn’t knew if it was going to be good or bad for him
- Sure, but where?-
- Oh, I just want you to meet someone- Arthur put a bad face
- Mathew, you know I’m not interested in a couple, I’m fine being single-
- No you’re not-
- Yes I am, besides, don’t you remember what happened last time you introduced me someone?-
- How could I forget? After she went crying to our house saying she was mad for you-
- Yes, and we had to call the police. That woman was crazy! So, no thanks Mathew-
- No, today’s my special day so I won’t let you deny me this. Besides, I know this time you’ll like the person I’ll introduce you- Mathew had carried Arthur all the way to a very private corner in the room, and Arthur started feeling a bit nervous. What was it he was being nervous at? If he didn’t like the girl he just had to gentlemanly tell her he was not interested. It’s not like he hadn’t done it before.
- Oh, there he is- Arthur turned around to see the woman in question, but he froze when he saw who it really was.
- Mathew he…?-
But they arrived.
- Oh, by the way Alfred, remember to fulfill your promise okay?-
- Where did that come from? Do you know something I don’t?-
- Of course, dear Alfred, When will you understand I know everything?-
- What…?- But he couldn’t end his question, as they had reached their destiny and, in front of him was the only man that made his heart beat like crazy.
- Brother Arthur, I’d like you to meet Alfred Jones-
- Well, we will leave you alone so you can talk. Enjoy! - And Mathew and Francis were gone.
Silence fell upon the two once brothers. A VERY thick silence.
Finally Arthur cleared his throat.
- Alfred, what a… nice surprise. I guess I cannot say this is a coincidence, since nothing’s a coincidence when you talk about those two. It’s good… to see you’re fine- Arthur’s cheeks reddened as he took a glance at Alfred’s appearance
- Thanks, you’re looking very good too- he wanted to say gorgeous, but he couldn’t even if it was true.
Arthur was a little bit taller, but not too much. He was smaller than Alfred. Also he had a slender figure, but he didn’t look fragile like Mathew did, in fact, Arthur looked strong and kind of… sexy. But his eyes didn’t have the light Alfred could see before, also, he had rings under his eyes and looked a lot older than he was.
- So tell me Alfred, what… have you been doing all this time?-
- Well, I have been working as a mechanic for a company. Francis’ company indeed, although I didn’t knew I worked for him until this month. Mathew told me you were now studying to be lawyer how’s that going? He says you’re pretty skilled-
- Oh, that. Well, it’s difficult some times, but it’s going fine. Thanks for asking.- uncomfortable silence again- Look, em, It’s good to see you Alfred, really, but I think I’m going to go say hi to my old schoolmates. I haven’t seen them in a while, so… I’ll see you later- And Arthur turned to leave
You have only one chance, be sure not to screw it up
Francis’ words came back to his mind in the immediate moment Arthur was about to get lost in the crowd.
“He’s right, if I let him go now, I’ll probably never see him again” thought Alfred the second he started walking until he reached Arthur’s hand and stopped him
- Arthur wait! -
- What do you want now Alfred?-
- Arthur I’m… I’m sorry- He knew that it wouldn’t be that easy, but he had to start with something right?
- You’re sorry? You’re sorry?! Being sorry won’t change a thing Alfred!- And when Arthur looked at him, he had tears in his beautiful green eyes- You leave just like that, and then, three years after, you think a “sorry” will mend anything? Keep that sorry for yourself Alfred, keep it and disappear- he tried to free his hand, but Alfred didn’t loosen his grip
- I know that already! But I can’t let you go just like that, I can’t! I’m sorry I escaped, I’m sorry I made you suffer, I’m sorry I never told you how I really felt until I left, I’m sorry I made you cry! I don’t intend you to forgive me now Arthur, but please don’t give your back to me and disappear-
- To not disappear? Are you asking ME that after what YOU did?! You think you have the right to ask me that?! Your “sorry” can’t change what you did, it can’t mend my broken heart nor can it give me back my tears.- Arthur now looked angry, sad and very angry- Besides, why does it matter to you?! I’M NOT EVEN YOUR FATHER NOR YOU’RE BROTHER- with each word Arthur said, Alfred’s heart ached more and more. And he knew the words that were coming now would be the last blow- I’M NOT EVEN YOUR FAMILY! SO WHY DO YOU CARE!?-
Alfred felt like Arthur had thrown a thousand knifes to his heart and that every one of them had got right in the blank. He remembered those words. And it hurt; he didn’t know how Arthur hadn’t hit him that time. But he couldn’t give up now.
Hope that Francis was right when he said Arthur didn’t hate him.
- I care because… I CARE BECAUSE I LOVE YOU ARTHUR!- there, he had said it- never in these three years have I not think about you, how are you, if you are fine, and regretting having left you without telling you face to face how I felt. But now… now’s different, now I won’t commit the same mistake Arthur, I won’t let you go now…- he looked at Arthur right in the eye, Arthur’s look was one of hurt and shock
- You can’t be serious… you’re lying, YOU’RE LYING!- Arthur finally got his hand free and stumbled a few feet’s away from Alfred, he looked scared- You… I… I HATE YOU! - And he went away running
Alfred started crying.
To be continued…
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Older chapters:
Chapter 1: finding a family
Chapter 2: About my biologic family
Fancomics:
Title: Let me be your hero!
Genre: Romance/AU/Gakuen
Rating/Warnings: G
Summary: Alfred wants to declare his love to England and he has his own special way to do it
Link: Go America, go!
Title: 'Cause you're my family. Chapter 3: Finding you
Genre: Angst/romance/Au
Pairing(s): UsxUk/ Franada
Word Count: 5278
Rating/Warnings: G?
Summary: Three years after they meet again. Will Alfred be forgiven?
Chapter 3: Finding you
Three years had passed since Alfred left, three long and sad years.
That day, exactly three years after he left, an 18 years old Alfred Jones woke up and had a strange feeling, like something was going to happen.
- Maybe I drank too much last night? - He yawned and got out of bed, directly to the shared bathroom.
He was now staying at a boarding house in the United States of America, he had finally got to America, but when he arrived, he realized he was completely lost. The U.S.A was sure a big country. So many states so much land. Also, he had nothing but his clothes when he arrived, so he had to find a way to get money. Fortunately a man hired him to help him. In three years he had learnt how to be a mechanic, and now he was working as one for a big French company.
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In the airport, a young blonde man had just arrived to the United States.
- I wonder if I will be able to find you-
And with that the man left the airport.
- - - - - - - -
- Alfred, can you help me with these?-
- Coming!-
- Thanks. Hey Al, You wanna go drink with us tonight?-
- Again?-
- Of course! You’re eighteen now man, now that you can drink legally you have to do it-
- Maybe you’re right, but… I’m not in the mood for drinking today- He sighed
- What happens to you today Alfred?! You look like a dumped man, and you don’t even have a girlfriend nor had one. - The big man chuckled and Alfred tried, but it ended sounding really sad.
- Sorry, it’s just… today’s not a good day, that’s all. I’ll be okay tomorrow-
- If you say so, but, just so you know we will be in the same place we were yesterday-
- Thanks-
Alfred went back to what he was fixing before and stayed unnaturally quiet.
- Hey Alfred! - His boss entered the garage
- Here I am Sir! Is there something you need from me?-
- Are you busy now? - Alfred looked back at the car he was fixing, and then shook his head
- Just fixing a car sir, but I’m almost finished.-
- Good, because I have to give you a task- Alfred frowned
- A Task?-
- Yeah, and a very important one. You see, I need someone to go pick some car parts from this store- he showed Alfred an address- They’re very important, so I chose you, because you’re my most reliable employee- Alfred, despite being depressed, felt proud of himself
- Wow, Thanks sir, then… I’m going. See you later- and, taking the paper with the address, Alfred left the garage.
- Wow boss, you really now how to cheer people!-
- And that’s only the start-
- What do you mean sir?-
- Ah, I didn’t send him only to pick those parts- when his employee looked at him with a curious face he smirked- You’ll see, that bastard is the best cheering people up-
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“Alfred please go here as well, I need you to get something for me. If you show this paper to the shop assistant he will give you what you have to bring to me. Thanks!” it’s what was written at the bottom of the paper the boss had given him.
- Well, it’s in the way to work, so it won’t hurt - he was now standing in front of said shop.
He opened the door carefully, it was a small shop and there were very… rare things in the walls, many of which Alfred supposed what they were for, but he wouldn’t dare to ask.
- em… ‘ello? I’m here to get something my boss ordered, he told me to show this paper so you would know what that thing he asked was…- told Alfred to the shop assistant.
The man looked at the paper and then at Alfred.
- So you’re Alfred. Wait here, I’ll go get the boss- and then the man disappeared behind a door that, Alfred supposed, lead to some kind of office.
What had he gotten himself into? And how did that guy know his name?
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- According to Arthur’s notes, it’s here… but I’m not very sure- said the blonde from the airport looking at the same shop Alfred was looking a few minutes ago.- Maybe I should go look around again. Maybe I’m mistaken-
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- Alfred was starting to get impatient; it had been at lest 3 minutes since the assistant left and there hadn’t been anything that left him feel that they knew he was still here.
And then, the back door opened.
- Nice to see you again, dear America- Alfred jumped from surprise. It couldn’t be, he knew that voice, it was…
- Francis!-
- The one and only dear Alfred, the one and only-
Francis looked now more mature than before, and, as Alfred thought that, he also thought it was obvious. Even he himself had changed in three years. Now Francis had a little beard in his chin and he was taller. Also, his clothes were now the ones of a big businessman but his hair was still long (for being a man that is).
- Wow America, you sure have grown a lot. I didn’t remember you this tall and well-built. Also, now you are pretty handsome too. Arthur would be really proud if he saw you like this- at Arthur’s mention Alfred sulked again- Oh, but let’s not talk about the past, why don’t you stay a bit and take tea with me?-
- I don’t think so my boss is waiting for me-
- Oh, don’t worry about that, he knew I knew you and I already told him I would be keeping you for myself for a while. He works for me, after all.- Francis winked at Alfred and motioned him to go with him. But, before Alfred could move, the entrance door opened.
- Excuse me, is here…? - But the “customer” stopped in his track when he saw who was in the shop- Brother?-
- Mathew?-
- What a nice surprise! - Said Francis with a knowing smile in his face
- You planned this Francis?-
- Maybe, but, won’t you come in Mathew, I think your brother is eager to hug you-
Mathew entered the shop, still with a look of shock in his face, and walked until his was in front of Alfred.
- Mathew, I…-
Mathew slapped him and Francis chuckled. Mathew’s eyes were teary when Alfred looked again at them.
- You’re an idiot Brother- and then Mathew hugged him. Alfred smiled and hugged him back.
- Is good to see you again Matt-
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- And what have you been doing this three years Alfred?-
The three of them were enjoying something Alfred had long forgotten existed: Afternoon tea. Also, he hadn’t eaten good cookies since he got there; he had no money to spend them on such things.
- Working. I mean, when I came here I brought no money with me- Mathew and Francis sweat dropped, but they thought that was kind of an Alfred thing to say.- And what have you guys been doing? I mean, I suppose you Mathew finished school, but I’m curious about what did you do after that, besides of coming here I mean.
- Well, I want to study medicine, so Brother Arthur said he would pay the college for me. I have to go back to London for that, though-
- Then why are you here, in America?-
- I came to visit Brother Francis, since I finished school with the top school honors, Arthur said I could were I would want to go, and when I told him I wanted to come here, Brother Francis said I could stay with him- then his cheeks flushed, but Alfred didn’t pay much attention to that
- I knew you were going to be the best student Matt! Congratulations! - He then gave another hug to Mathew- And you Francis? What are you doing here?-
- Don’t you remember my family owns a lot of companies out in the world? Well, that one company where you work is one of those, so I’m here to take care of it for a while.-
- Really? Wow, didn’t knew you were my upper boss, why didn’t you contact me before?! I would have been really happy to see you!-
- Oh, I didn’t know you worked for me until you boss told me some Alfred Jones was really upset today and that he wanted me to cheer you up- Alfred’s cheeks turned red with that- So, Why were you so upset today? Money? Friends? Or perhaps… Love?-
- No, nothing like that, It’s just today’s not a good day for me, nothing more- Mathew also looked down hearing those worlds. Oh, he remembered perfectly what day this was.
- Arthur must be suffering a lot now- mumbled Mathew
- What did you say Mathieu? - asked Francis. Oh, but Alfred had heard, and his heart ached at those words.
- Nothing! Just talking to myself- Mathew noticed that Alfred was down again, so he tried to change the subject- And tell me Al, where are you living now?-
- Eh? Oh, in a boarding house not far from here. Why do you ask?-
- No reason really, just wondering- but he sighed in relief, when Alfred said he had no money he thought that he was living in the streets.
- Say Alfred, wouldn’t you want to live with me? My house too big for me alone, not that Mathew is no company but he will be staying only for a month- asked Francis with a smile on his face. Alfred looked disbelievingly
- You mean that?-
- Of course, a gentleman never lies about those things-
- Yes! That would be awesome! Thanks Francis!-
- You’re welcome-
Mathew smiled happily, that meant he would be living, if only for a month, with his beloved brother again, like when they lived with Arthur.
That thought brought back the sadness from before.
- Alfred, may I ask you something?-
- Sure Francis-
- Did you find what you came looking for? - With that Alfred’s smile disappeared
- Reality is, I got lost when I arrived. And, even if I sent that guy Alfred a lot of letters, he never answered them. He probably moved before they arrived. Also, I tried looking in the phone guide, but there are a lot of Alfred Jones here in America, so no, I haven’t found him- now he had the same eyes Mathew had when no letter arrived back when they sent that first letter. He looked hopeless.
- Oh, sorry about that-
- No need to be sorry Francis, it’s not your fault- but still, Alfred looked depressed.- Well, I think I’m going back to my work, boss has to be waiting for the things he asked-
- Oh, right, then see you later lad. Come here when you finish working, so I can show you where the house is-
- Sure. See you later Matt, Francis- And he was gone
- You should tell Arthur you found him-
- Thanks Brother Francis-
- What for?-
- For everything-
-You mean taking care of him from now on?-
- That and for finding him-
- Oh, that’s nothing Mathieu, it was a coincidence I found him. Also I would do anything for you Love- and they kissed each other
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Francis lived in a big blue house in the center of New York; it was not as near to his job as the boarding house, but it was far more comfortable. Also there was the fact that it was “free”, since Francis had so much money he said he would pay for everything.
- Well, I leave you to arrange your things in your new room. Hope it’s of your like-
- Anything would do for me Francis, thanks-
- No problem-
He opened the door and looked at his new bedroom. The walls were blue with a white stripe in the part near the floor. Also it was really big. It had a wood wardrobe and a desk. Then there was the bed, a big comfy bed. Alfred left his belongings aside and jumped to his new bed. He really had missed the feeling of a comfy bed.
Someone knocked at the door.
- Come in! - Alfred stood up; ready to welcome anyone that was there.
- Don’t worry, it’s me- said his brother, and Alfred relaxed
- Matt, come in; take seat- he took seat in the bed and patting his side, motioning Mathew to sit beside him. The other did as told and sat beside his twin, putting the teddy bear he carried with him these days in his lap.
They stayed silence for a couple of minutes, and then Alfred spoke.
- How’s he doing? - Mathew looked at his twin, surprised at first, then looked down, a sad smile in his face
- Fine, I think. He’s studying laws now; he’s pretty good at it you know? You would be surprised if you saw him in the practice cases-
- Really? I always thought he would study something in the scientific area-
- No, at the end he chose to study laws.-
Then the silence fell again
- He would be very proud of you if he saw you now, you know?-
- Francis told me the same-
- Ah- silence again- Say Alfred, I’m curious about something… How did you get here? You said you had no money-
- Oh, that- Alfred smiled a goofy smile- I stowed away in a merchandise ship. It was really fun, although I had to work in the ship when they found me.-
- You idiot, what would you have done if the decided they would throw you to the ocean? - Alfred looked thoughtful for a while, and then smiled.
- Don’t know, but that didn’t happen so there’s no use in worrying-
- Jeez, you may look older but you’re still a child in the inside- Alfred smiled in his own, childish way. And Mathew’s anger went away for a while. He knew Alfred was like that anyway.
Then he turned serious again.
- He was destroyed when he found you escaped, you know? We all were, but Arthur was the one that suffered the most. He thought it was his fault- Mathew looked away; he didn’t want his brother to feel he was scolding him or something, but he had to say it. He would explode if he didn’t - He looked for you like crazy for almost three months, asking every police in the city to look for you. He went out everyday from after school till midnight looking for you. Even when we and Francis gave up, he still continued searching for you. The only way we could make him sleep was giving him sleeping pills, but even with that he woke up in the middle of the night screaming for you. He had nightmares everyday. - Now Mathew had started crying
- Matt… I’m so sorry, I didn’t…-
- Don’t! If you say something now I won’t be able to tell you everything- Mathew inhaled deep and continued- After those three horrible first months, Arthur never was the same. He isolated from friends, the only one that remained was Francis. His grades never went down though- at this he chuckled sadly- But now he was cold, and his eyes never showed true happiness, even if he tried to fake it, we were able to see through his fake. He started drinking too, a lot. He went to the bar almost every night. He suffered so much… His eyes had no light anymore. And he was always looking at the mail, like waiting. But, after a year or two, he just stopped looking at the mail with hope, he looked more broken than ever. But now he had armor around him, no one could approach his heart. Still he let me come here, even if he knew the loneliness was going to be darker. He said I was older enough and that it was time for me to fly, I was older enough. I hope he’s okay now-
When Mathew finished, Alfred was crying and with his hand in his hands. His heart aching so much he felt like it was going to break.
- Why are you telling me this Matt?-
- Because I think you owe to know-
Silence again. Then Mathew stood up. And Alfred, even in his sorrow, admired how changed his beloved twin was. He had his hair longer; it was as long as Francis’, and his figure, different from his own, was slender. His skin was paler than his own too. And there was something in him that made him look very mature. There was no hint of the child he knew so well.
- See you at dinner Alfred- and Alfred was left alone with his suffering.
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Many days had passed, now there was only a week left of Mathew’s vacation. That month had been the best in Alfred’s three past years. Even if Mathew had avoided him the first days after their talk, it had been awesome to spend time with him and Francis when Mathew started talking to him again.
- I forgive you, but only because I can’t hate you Al- told him Mathew after a few days- But it won’t be that easy to get Arthur’s forgiveness-
- I know. Thanks Bro-
And after that things had gotten better and better. He also found out his brother and Francis were a couple now. In fact, they’d been going out for two years now. They were going to celebrate their two year anniversary this week, so there had been a lot of preparations that week. He was invited of course.
- Do you want me to go with you to buy a suit, dear Alfred?-
- You would do that for me Francis? That would be great; I don’t know a thing about suits and stuff like that-
- Then I feel more obliged to go with you, I can let one of my very important guests to be bad dressed-
- Thanks, I suppose-
- - -
- Then you’re coming?-
- Of course I am Mathew, I wouldn’t miss such an important occasion.-
- Thanks Arthur! I love you Brother-
- I love you too Mathew, you know that- there was a silence at the other side of the phone- Had you found him?-
Mathew gulped
- N-No, America’s really big and I haven’t been out that much. Sorry Arthur- he hated telling lies to his brother, but it was supposed to be a surprise for him. Besides, Arthur would probably find an excuse if he told him Alfred was going.
- I see. Guess you’re right, sorry for asking you that; it’s probably hurtful for you too-
- don’t worry, I understand- Mathew smiled sadly as he knew Arthur was probably crying at the other side of the phone
- Then, see you in two days Mathew-
- See you-
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They had already finished shopping and Alfred almost had a heart attack at the prices. He knew Francis had money, but he didn’t know he liked so expensive shops.
- I promise I will pay you for this Francis!-
- Don’t worry, take it as a gift for the many birthdays that I gave you nothing-
- But that’s not fair… You couldn’t have given me anything; you didn’t know were I was. Also, I didn’t give you something too.-
- Just keep it Alfred. You’re not supposed to complain when someone’s giving you a gift-
- But…-
- Shhh, besides, I’m not doing this only for you- Francis winked at him- But, you could ask me a question as payment for the suit, if you want-
- Ask what you want-
- Well then, I’ll go to the point. Do you still love Arthur? - Francis looked at him in the eye with a very serious look
Alfred blushed
- What are you talking about Francis, of course…-
- Be honest, I will know if you’re lying- Alfred sighed
- Yes, My heart still beats faster when I hear about him-
- That’s good- Alfred looked at him like he had grown a second head
- Good? What part of it is good? Arthur probably hates me now-
- It’s true you have reasons to think that, but believe, he does not hate you. Even if he yells you he does, he doesn’t. In fact, I think he still loves you, even after all that you did-
- Are you joking? Even I would hate myself if I were him-
- But you’re not. Now listen to me, and listen very carefully- Alfred nodded, gulping at Francis’ menacing look- You’ll have just one chance to mend what you did, if you waste, then it’s over. So be sure not to screw that opportunity-
- A chance to mend everything? What are you talking about, I’m not going to England, I would probably only cause him more suffering-
- Maybe, but only at first. You’ll be surprised to see how much he longs for you, Alfred. So be sure to do it right-
- I don’t know what you’re talking about Francis, but I swear that if I had just one chance to be with Arthur, I would take it without a doubt-
- That’s what I wanted to hear, be sure to keep that promise, if not, I, myself, will make sure you regret it-
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Finally the big day had come.
And Alfred never thought he would see so many familiar faces again. Apart from his workmates, he had seen some of his old schoolmates in the party. God, he had even seen some of his old teachers! But he has seen not sight from Arthur, and that had him a bit depressed. On the other hand, maybe it was better for him that Arthur had not come; maybe they weren’t destined to be together. Beside, what would he tell him if he saw him? “Sorry Arthur, Forgive me please”? No way would Arthur forgive him that way. “Sorry Arthur, I love you, would you be with me?” Arthur probably would hit him for idiot and the run away.
- Jeez, there’s no way he’ll forgive me, I’m doomed-
- Alfred! - He turned his head, looking for the person that had called him
- Francis! Haven’t seen you since the party started. There sure is a lot of people- commented Alfred with a little smile
- But you are missing one face right? Don’t worry; did you think I wouldn’t invite my other brother in law? Arthur would kill me-
- So, He’s here?-
- Right- Alfred started looking everywhere, trying to spot Arthur somewhere
- Hey, easy Romeo, Don’t worry, you’ll find him eventually-
- But what if he doesn’t want to see me? - Francis sighed
- Then you follow him until he wants to; believe he does want to see you. So be brave and don’t forget your promise-
- Right- but he already looked anxious and depressed
- Look, calm down. And while you’re at it, accompany me get some drinks for us-
- Sure, why not-
He was really enjoying the party; Francis sure had a lot of money. And, by how it looked, he loved Mathew from the bottom of his heart. He had never left him alone until now, and that was only because he went to get them some drinks.
- And how’re you doing Mathew? Are you happy?-
- Oh ye, of course. Francis is such a good person; I can’t believe we are still together- said Mathew with red cheeks
- I wouldn’t have leave him be with you if I wasn’t sure he was Mathew-
- Thanks brother-
- No need to thank me Mathew, that’s what brothers do, isn’t it?- and then again there was a sad look in his eyes, but Mathew said nothing about it
- Yeah, you’re right- then Mathew smiled- And, now that we’re talking about brotherhood favors, would you accompany me Arthur?- Arthur frowned, he knew Matt was planning something, but he didn’t knew if it was going to be good or bad for him
- Sure, but where?-
- Oh, I just want you to meet someone- Arthur put a bad face
- Mathew, you know I’m not interested in a couple, I’m fine being single-
- No you’re not-
- Yes I am, besides, don’t you remember what happened last time you introduced me someone?-
- How could I forget? After she went crying to our house saying she was mad for you-
- Yes, and we had to call the police. That woman was crazy! So, no thanks Mathew-
- No, today’s my special day so I won’t let you deny me this. Besides, I know this time you’ll like the person I’ll introduce you- Mathew had carried Arthur all the way to a very private corner in the room, and Arthur started feeling a bit nervous. What was it he was being nervous at? If he didn’t like the girl he just had to gentlemanly tell her he was not interested. It’s not like he hadn’t done it before.
- Oh, there he is- Arthur turned around to see the woman in question, but he froze when he saw who it really was.
- Mathew he…?-
But they arrived.
- Oh, by the way Alfred, remember to fulfill your promise okay?-
- Where did that come from? Do you know something I don’t?-
- Of course, dear Alfred, When will you understand I know everything?-
- What…?- But he couldn’t end his question, as they had reached their destiny and, in front of him was the only man that made his heart beat like crazy.
- Brother Arthur, I’d like you to meet Alfred Jones-
- Well, we will leave you alone so you can talk. Enjoy! - And Mathew and Francis were gone.
Silence fell upon the two once brothers. A VERY thick silence.
Finally Arthur cleared his throat.
- Alfred, what a… nice surprise. I guess I cannot say this is a coincidence, since nothing’s a coincidence when you talk about those two. It’s good… to see you’re fine- Arthur’s cheeks reddened as he took a glance at Alfred’s appearance
- Thanks, you’re looking very good too- he wanted to say gorgeous, but he couldn’t even if it was true.
Arthur was a little bit taller, but not too much. He was smaller than Alfred. Also he had a slender figure, but he didn’t look fragile like Mathew did, in fact, Arthur looked strong and kind of… sexy. But his eyes didn’t have the light Alfred could see before, also, he had rings under his eyes and looked a lot older than he was.
- So tell me Alfred, what… have you been doing all this time?-
- Well, I have been working as a mechanic for a company. Francis’ company indeed, although I didn’t knew I worked for him until this month. Mathew told me you were now studying to be lawyer how’s that going? He says you’re pretty skilled-
- Oh, that. Well, it’s difficult some times, but it’s going fine. Thanks for asking.- uncomfortable silence again- Look, em, It’s good to see you Alfred, really, but I think I’m going to go say hi to my old schoolmates. I haven’t seen them in a while, so… I’ll see you later- And Arthur turned to leave
You have only one chance, be sure not to screw it up
Francis’ words came back to his mind in the immediate moment Arthur was about to get lost in the crowd.
“He’s right, if I let him go now, I’ll probably never see him again” thought Alfred the second he started walking until he reached Arthur’s hand and stopped him
- Arthur wait! -
- What do you want now Alfred?-
- Arthur I’m… I’m sorry- He knew that it wouldn’t be that easy, but he had to start with something right?
- You’re sorry? You’re sorry?! Being sorry won’t change a thing Alfred!- And when Arthur looked at him, he had tears in his beautiful green eyes- You leave just like that, and then, three years after, you think a “sorry” will mend anything? Keep that sorry for yourself Alfred, keep it and disappear- he tried to free his hand, but Alfred didn’t loosen his grip
- I know that already! But I can’t let you go just like that, I can’t! I’m sorry I escaped, I’m sorry I made you suffer, I’m sorry I never told you how I really felt until I left, I’m sorry I made you cry! I don’t intend you to forgive me now Arthur, but please don’t give your back to me and disappear-
- To not disappear? Are you asking ME that after what YOU did?! You think you have the right to ask me that?! Your “sorry” can’t change what you did, it can’t mend my broken heart nor can it give me back my tears.- Arthur now looked angry, sad and very angry- Besides, why does it matter to you?! I’M NOT EVEN YOUR FATHER NOR YOU’RE BROTHER- with each word Arthur said, Alfred’s heart ached more and more. And he knew the words that were coming now would be the last blow- I’M NOT EVEN YOUR FAMILY! SO WHY DO YOU CARE!?-
Alfred felt like Arthur had thrown a thousand knifes to his heart and that every one of them had got right in the blank. He remembered those words. And it hurt; he didn’t know how Arthur hadn’t hit him that time. But he couldn’t give up now.
Hope that Francis was right when he said Arthur didn’t hate him.
- I care because… I CARE BECAUSE I LOVE YOU ARTHUR!- there, he had said it- never in these three years have I not think about you, how are you, if you are fine, and regretting having left you without telling you face to face how I felt. But now… now’s different, now I won’t commit the same mistake Arthur, I won’t let you go now…- he looked at Arthur right in the eye, Arthur’s look was one of hurt and shock
- You can’t be serious… you’re lying, YOU’RE LYING!- Arthur finally got his hand free and stumbled a few feet’s away from Alfred, he looked scared- You… I… I HATE YOU! - And he went away running
Alfred started crying.
To be continued…
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Older chapters:
Chapter 1: finding a family
Chapter 2: About my biologic family
Fancomics:
Title: Let me be your hero!
Genre: Romance/AU/Gakuen
Rating/Warnings: G
Summary: Alfred wants to declare his love to England and he has his own special way to do it
Link: Go America, go!