today, there is the most perfect stillness in the air. the temperature is..neutral; it's as if the wind no longer exists. new york is swathed in blossoming trees and everyone`s congregating towards the parks. sitting on steps, watching, learning..loving. i wonder if other people study the minute details as i do at times; the expression on one's ( Read more... )

so i said, "i can't stay the night because i have art class in the morning. remember, love hard. forgive harder."

i tried taking photographs when i was eleven. i took them of people i thought were my friends and in the summertime, i would look back on them as evidence of laughter in my life. i wanted to be a photographer..because i wanted to do something artistic to please my father. and now, here i am, twenty, certain of what i would like to contribute to ( Read more... )

today, this sunday, i spent it wandering around williamsburg. i met a friendly brown dog at outside ny, bought too many clothes (really, what`s new) and enjoyed the spring thaw. i listened to grizzly bear for the first time and now i know why everyone loves them.

i met someone last night, at a party. allie took me and i wasn`t trying to get my ( Read more... )

i'm sorry for being so quiet. when i get my camera, i will make a real post, full of new york-ness, and explainations about life. its just that my computer died so and i only have internet at work. and i am already infamous for checking email and facebook too often...

new york has been incredible..there are times when i am in a store or on the street and my heart is full to bursting. i feel as if the life i have always wished to lead can be lead here. a lot has happened in the past few weeks..but i think i will be all right.

the streets of this city seem alive. i feel as if i can find everything i have ever ( Read more... )

its time for new beginnings. i`m going to start over in new york city, where else? my hair is going to be chopped off. my life is going to be pulled back together. no more running away and making excuses. i am going to be the person i want to be..

i am enraged, betrayed and grieving. i just lost my home. a part of my dream has died.

what are you supposed to do when you lose something so fundamental?

only now its hit me that i am going tomorrow. all of the stress and preparation for new york is beginning to lessen; tomorrow, i leave on a train destined for endless landscapes.

the train ride to new york is something special i think. for hours upon hours, the hills and the houses simply melt into one another. you watch the passing of the light, ( Read more... )

i wish my mother loved me. dear god, if the last few weeks are indicative of the general nature of 2007, i will throw in the towel.