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I Know What My Weaknesses Are. Probably Better Than You Do.
So last night I was in a really bad mood. I don't know entirely know why, it just kind of started bubbling up after getting home and every small inconvenience started to just make me so incredibly pissed off. At one point Tia said her friend wanting them to go to one of those "boot camps in the park" things that personal trainers do to make money, ( Read more... ) -
That Was a Well-Plotted Piece of Non-Claptrap that Never Made Me Want to Retch.
This weekend was slightly odd. Virginia and I got married on May 25th, but it was also Memorial day, so I had 2 days this weekend that kind of got me down. The 25th didn't actually bother me all that much. I kept forgetting the date and even that it had, at one point, held any significance at all. It was weird to me, whenever I noticed the date I ( Read more... ) -
Right Foot, Followed By Your Left Foot, Will Guide You Home Before Your Curfew, And Into Your Bed.
It's Thunder and It's Lightning will forever be a reminder that when two sad and lonely people get together they are prone to making poor and desperate choices. -
A Very Unmerry Birthday, To Me.
I'm in a bad mood. I hate myself and hate everyone else. I want to run away from my life I want to just flee everything. Jamie was right, Virginia didn't respond. I hate myself for being affected by things. I hate Virginia for texting me. I hate myself for coming to Denver. I hate Jamie for being right. I hate myself for hating Jamie. I hate the ( Read more... ) -
To Sleep Would Be Best, But I Just Can't Afford to Rest. I've Gotta Ride in Denver Tomorrow Night.
I took today off as a "mental health" day. I woke up this morning and was just completely drained, mentally and physically. But even then I felt guilty and wound up using my sick day for activities that one would actually take sick time for. I went to get an eye exam and get new contacts. Really, I needed new glasses, since Lazy chewed my old ones ( Read more... ) -
Well I'm Not Suppose to See You Looking. Not Suppose to Stare Straight Into Your Eyes.
I went into to work today to work on some printers. I needed an image to print for testing purposes, so I was going through shit on my laptop. I stumbled onto some pictures of Virginia from just after she cut her hair. Hindsight is 20/20, and I know I'm reading into things too much, but I can completely see the contempt she has for me and every ( Read more... ) -
I Hate People Hard, But I Don't Hate Them Very Long.
That's not entirely true. I can hold a grudge like a mother fucker when the situation warrants it. However most of the time I just get pissed off about stupid shit and hate someone briefly before realizing that maybe, just maybe, I was over-reacting and should dial it back a notch ( Read more... ) -
I Didn't Know That The Words You Said To Me Meant More To Me Than They Ever Could You.
The brief resurgence of livejournal seems to have died off. With Consuela being happy and not posting it really seems like I'm talking into the void now. That is probably a good thing though. Let's see, what's going on...it's been awhile ( Read more... ) -
And I Fear That It’s All Just Coming Back, It’s All Coming Back, It’s All Coming Back To Me.
It's time for band stuff, boring, I know. I've never been a good musician. I don't have the drive to practice for hours a day and get better. It's just something fun that I like to do with my friends. I'm never going to make any money off of it, it's always going to cost me money, and I accept that. However, being in a band can be really fucking ( Read more... ) -
It's Nights Like These, When Nothing is for Sure. It's Nights Like These, I Don't Want You Anymore.
Last night, out of the blue, I had a dream about Virginia. I'll go through stretches when I can hardly remember her at all and then suddenly this morning, after I woke up, I had the most vivid recollections of so much. I think my brain needs to find its middle ground on the subject ( Read more... )