like a butterfly i hold it to close 2 my heart too tight it is crushed. im getting abused by twats over the net playing games chipping my self-esteem and making my day suck more so.... i dont like being alone and i dont like being abused when im trying 2 relax they were insulting me but my clansmen stepped in to help but it was too late the damage ( Read more... )

NO fuck! no god damn it! i cry i cry for her as i left i held it in but i cudnt stop crying when i got home.... Y!? I LOVE HER I LOVE BECKI! we spent all those minutes/hours together and i enjoyed it so much it was so intense and soul rewarding my lips r worn away and my heart aches for more but i cant have it not 4 another month which sucks i ( Read more... )

yes i no its stoopid to b on the pc and stuff and waste more time but i cant really b arsed ive just let things pile up and up and up... ive gotta clean the house, clean myself (that 1 i iant done 4 a while), buy dog food, buy my food, clean some moer things, get the washing and rubbish sorted (thats a 2 in 1 job) and make sure its all purdy and ( Read more... )

im off again stripping walls and getting sweaty yes it s a crap job but someones gotta do it! i just want this week over so i can b with Becki agian and kiss her and hold her and ......well *ahem*......yes quite. it was just so shit i was stripping 1 wall for 4 hrs and didnt finish it and to make it worse all the plaster melted on my hands and set ( Read more... )

Have a lot of work lined up 4 myself this week from helping my uncle gut his spare room 2 possible job every day but all i do this 4 is Becki. i work and take lousy shifts just so i can get paid and go c becki and keep her happy and safe. i wud live with her but it cant happpen because my parents say no. =( but they do say i cud stay 4 a day or 2 = ( Read more... )

wow im older, still i stand waiting for moments to wash me down. water down the mood. today i finished schooling well forever and ive done the things in the past 24 hours that truely define who i am as a being in this world. it strikes me down im human with things i do and form showcase my potenial as a man in the 21st century. i've cried for my ( Read more... )

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this must be the stoopidist thing i've ever said but i realised im going out with becki tis like waking from a beautiful coma and seeing a friendly face for the first time in an age. i mean wow shes amazing just her voice make my eyes glide into the back of my head and i sink slowly feeling loved and happy, i have no idea what will happen to me ( Read more... )