furious, angry, upset, scared, tired, hungover, happy, content, anxiety.
my entire week.

oh my god. this is totally NOT okay.

Gay. I have a stupid dentist appointment today. Which is never fun. I have a friggin SWAP this weekend. Which means I lose hours at work, but I work sunday to make them up. At 7:30am. Shooot me. 

I understand the caring and watching out for me part, and I appriciate it. I don't understand the verbal abuse and the treats. This kills but stop putting the blame on me. I didn't give me the problem of, "it's either you go out with me, or we're done. friendship is over." Really? How do you think i am suppose to react to that? As much as I don't ( Read more... )

I find myself resulting in multiple personalities. I feel one way, but the other way I feel is exact opposite of the other. Kind of makes me feel like i belong in a straight jacket. I have come to terms with how wrong & insane my thought process is. and that noone will understand. For example, I always need to have things planned, but i love doing ( Read more... )

everything changes so frequently. You can't stop change, so I have to stop attempting to.

my co-op teacher just told us great adventure is hiring. How wonderful would that be. only if i drove, and/or it was closer.

It's absolutely gorgeous outside. I don't have the energy to get worked up about anything anymore. I'm numb. I got called a "fucking bitch" by 7 out of 8 people on my volleyball team today. That was pretty funny. Pleasepleaseplease don't have me work today. I want to take my puppy for a walk. I wish i could handle snoop, and take him, but he is too ( Read more... )

FRIENDS ONLY!
SORRY! you can no longer revolve
your lives around mine. kthnksbye.

You aren't who I thought you were. You're not who you were two years ago. I thought you were different, but this is a big shock. It figures though, you know. I still don't understand it, and what the intentions were. Clearly it was just to past time.  Never thought I would have such negative feelings towards you. It's weird. I guess shit happens.

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