80 to 100. why is the 60 closed. i need to make some cash. why do i keep liking my best friends even though i try so hard not to. why do things you say wont happen always happen.

<3 august

why the fuck do i get soooo turned around. its like im not even real anymore. the former me no longer exists. i jsut dont seem to care anymore. i lost my last reason to care.

I'm never asleep and I'm never awake.

i'm dreaming. my life is a lucid dream. and something is always wrong. "we understand and wont do shit"

im guessing that dominic hates me and im finally getting it. i feel like ish.

i leave tomarrow. i get back on saturday. i am going to Crestline. I am going to Thousand Pines Christian summer camp. i really hope i will take whatever i learn back down the mountain with me. every year i go up there and get so close to God and then i come back down and all the promises i had made jsut dissapear. i really hope this doesnt ( Read more... )

oh man... kinda accurate.

april and garrett are so cute together. they are amazing. i truely believe they were made for each other. im really happy because i can see how happy he makes her no matter what is happening and vice versus. they are perfect together. and they are together because garrett likes april and april likes garrett and they are going to get married and ( Read more... )

i see dominic on sunday. scott too. but i see dominic on sunday and im really scared/nervous. i dont know... like im freaking out about what to wear what to say how to do my make up. im seriously freaking out lol. bah. ahhhhhh! ok so here's where you guys come in... id like to know what outfit i look best in and how my make up looks good. ( Read more... )