why can't someone want me? what is so wrong with me that i can not be seen in loving way. in a way more than just hanging out and fucking.

alright karma, its been over a fucking year. are you serious?

the first thing i did the last 3 days is get up and job hunt online. and worked on my resume. and the first thing i do when i came home from work is job hunt. hopefully i will find one this time *crosses fingers*

i bought some stacker 3's off ebay. i'm hoping they'll actually work. i took one about 2 hours ago and i fee fine so at least i know they won't be making me feel all rubbery and nasty! i'm also going to take these pre-natal pills because they'll help in some way with providing the nutrients i need in order for my hair to grow more quickly, and in ( Read more... )

This is for any one who think they may be able to help: I have learned quite a bit about job searching. It's more than just turning in my Resume, like I thought. What I need is to do that, network, and face to face contact ( Read more... )

i don't know any thing now a days. i can't be sure of how i feel, and i can't be sure of whats real and whats not. i cant stop imagining things, and i am in constant doubt of everything. i dread waking up in the morning. i dont want to move out of my bed when i do finally wake myself up.

These dreams lately are ridiculous. I don't remember there detail for detail, but they wake me out of my sleep 2 or 3 times a night because it scares me how real they feel.

P.S Lost 5 pounds!

All I wanted was was for you to reply in time like you cared. I hope everyone had a great new year, and wasn't half as lonely as mine.

I'm pretty content right now, which is a good sign. Good.

Computer: Tony Stark
Ipod: Bisuke
TV: Charlie
Car: Saya

I wanna name my phone something I hate and love at the same time.

Please don't be using me for sex.