Well, it's been feeling exactly the same as before for a few days now. I keep expecting it to go away but it won't. It just keeps getting worse and worse. I'm scared of everything. I tried not to cut myself tonight, but at one point I freaked out and almost couldn't help myself. Instead I pierced another hole. Yay me. It's less visible, less ugly, ( Read more... )

ok.
i'm ok.
what am i going to do?
no..its ok
i don't need to worry about it.
i don't need to worry about anything :)
i'm going..piercing.

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i can't do this anymore ( Read more... )

best _____ of the year ( Read more... )

so since new years i've had steve return..he came back on the sunday after new years. the first day was nice and we got a long but as soon as the next day came around we started arguing and everything. we haven't had sex..and he seems okay with that which i think is kind of odd. anyway the other day we got into a huge fight in market mall. i hate ( Read more... )

well tonight i'm all..ready..i'm going to the underground. i don't know how people know when there's an underground but i always get the feeling i'd get when i was going to the Cité dances back in kap. everyone would tell you that there was one that friday and you'd go and there wouldn't be. you'd get a horrible feeling of disappointment and ( Read more... )

well..i got back from kap the day before yesterday. yesterday i went to sean's and brought him his records and opened my presents. i got hot date and a bunch of safety pins :) yay sean. anyway..then we went to kfc yum..and then went to the mall the meet janelle. it was fun..megan was there..and then ryan came. i thefted myself a very cute pinstripe ( Read more... )

i'm feeling a lot of things right now, but am not in the mood to share them. therefore i will fill out a time-consuming but somewhat rude survey ;P ( Read more... )

why am i so worthless

oh shut the fuck up..stop complaining to me about bullshit that i don't care about. im not fucking listening you're wasting your time and if this is helping that you're lying to yourself. fuck. it's all true. and it offends you so you're complaining about it to me? i agree completely. everyone is the same. you contradict yourself all the fucking ( Read more... )