that feeling that things were getting bad and something really bad or really good is going to happen was right.. its still there, but im really starting to think its going to be really good, not bad.

its been getting worse, trying to hold all the stuff from my childhood in. i wanted to call my dad today and i looked around to find that his phone number is no where in this house. and i dont know it. its getting closer to the surface and its going to start coming out without me wanting it to if something isnt done about it. the depression spells ( Read more... )

so today a girl told me that, based on personality and looks, i'm #1 in our school. thank you beautiful :) it makes me feel so good. my self confidence is so much better than it was last year. like from nothing to the highest it can get without getting cocky (that would be bad.) so yea. number one bitches. if there's anything i can do in return for ( Read more... )

dont worry about that last one guys~ it was just something pretty bad happened, but i was feeling better by later that night. so yea, get ahold of me if you want to hear what happened. no worries. im okay :)

these are my thoughts for the day...
if suicide was not a ticket to hell, i'd be gone

yesterday was an amazing day, i felt great all day, even though something pretty damn bad happened. i could feel inside me, the emotions i would have felt, but god was with me, and i knew it was all for the best. it was a good feeling, even though what happened could end up being really really really bad. sometimes we all have to fall hard before ( Read more... )

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"--Every chick says they want a nice guy but I am under the impression they dont because, for some reason, nice guys always get dumped for horny fuck-tards. They do I swear to God. why are some dudes such fags ( Read more... )

-This Girl ( Read more... )

well, i've felt like crap since like 5:00 today. and i know exactly why, it came to me in the shower. the problem ive been having is that i've lost focus on things i should not lose focus on. its a very religious problem. everyone tells me that the key to a relationship is to abandon the outcome, and i really had done that. just recently, i started ( Read more... )