she had never felt this way before,
the emptiness overpowering what love she had left
..destroying all hope of holding on. breaking her, turning her into everything 
she thought she'd never become. only one person could save her now, 
but he was gone, lost forever in the darkness of life. she'd give anything for a
 goodbye, one last kiss ..anything to ( Read more... )

i thought i knew
what kind of person you were, who you wanted to be
i thought you were better than that. you used to know right from wrong ..now i'm 
not so sure. everything means nothing to you anymore and i'd give anything for just a glimpse 
of who you used to be. your mistakes spread like darkness, covering the light and 
shadowing the good i loved ( Read more... )

i need more
i want to feel worthless and broken, i want the bruises
i want the pain. i need the relentless torture cause anything's better than
this. i can't stand the numb feeling in my heart and i'd give anything
to be able to stop shaking. don't you wonder how it'd feel to watch me bleed?
so just do it again, hit me one more time. i swear
..i won't ( Read more... )

please, save me
take away this pain. i can't breathe anymore
cure me, give me something worth fighting for, anything to destroy this sickness inside me.
i'm lost without you, buried in hopelessness and i can't escape this void in my heart ..the emptiness
is piercing & tormenting what once was love. removing every single memory of you, tearing
me apart ( Read more... )

hours, countless amounts of them. 
if only you knew how many nights I laid awake, praying the phone 
would ring ..just hoping to hear your voice one last time. I would've given anything for 
five minutes, one I love you ..anything, just to know you're still there. I can't stand the thought 
of losing you and every day we don't talk is another stab to ( Read more... )

i never meant to get so involved
you were never supposed to like me. it was just an escape, something to
 cure the unstoppable darkness, but you wanted more and i took advantage of everything 
..using your heart as if it meant nothing to me. i broke you, destroyed what little
 love you had left and took it all for granted. i wish i could go back, ( Read more... )

sometimes i think you enjoy it,
the thought of me failing. you like the idea of me having
regrets because it means i'll go back to you, back to the way i used to be ..you liked that 
part of me, the part that let you do whatever you wanted just so i could numb the pain. who cares 
about my feelings when you already have what you came for, right? ..i'd ( Read more... )

beautiful you said,
if only you knew what i thought about after you left
the cuts i made, the pain i felt. how many nights i laid awake, just hoping it would all end
i wonder what you'd say if you knew how often i thought of dying ..how comforting
it was to me and how many nights i cried myself to sleep, praying tomorrow would be different.
i wonder if ( Read more... )

I loved the thought of you, of us
i'd give anything to be able to make it work, but I can't
you're letting go of all we had left, destroying what we once called love and I can't
keep doing this ..I can't keep being your second choice. so just say it. i was wrong, you don't 
love me anymore and you were right, maybe I am lying to myself
..maybe you ( Read more... )

remember that night
..how close i came to kissing you?
i can still feel the butterflies in my stomach as you leaned forward, 
your mouth just inches from mine. i can feel your warm breath against my skin..
 your arms wrapped tightly around me and i would've given anything to keep you there, to 
tell you i love you, but i let go and you gave up and  ( Read more... )