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I can't sleep.

I had the worst dream after two minutes of sleep.

just that i was being lied to and used.

i know he is true to me.

but i fear.

fear fear fear.

just moved back to Minneapolis, after a year in Pennsylvanian. i left to get clean and find myself, same old story type of deal. anyhow, I moved back here to the mid-west and Andrew and I are back together, living together, everything is really amazing between us. Of course we both have had different lives the past year, but when I got off the ( Read more... )

summer summer summer. it's been pretty cold and rain. i like it. although i miss home. home being minneapolis. yeah i know, shut up ( Read more... )

so yeah i've been at rob's place for the past few days. it's been good. like.. really fucking good. like... yeah. anyways i'm so stoked he's going to start doing my tats for me, yes he's a tat artist and he skates and an artist and he builds cars and we were friend before anything. so yeah. oh and he's hot. like.. omg hot. i feel like a fucking ( Read more... )

fuck it.

right here, right now.

he loves.

i love.

i'll never not love.

but.

fuck it.

she is he.

he is she.

fuck it fuck it fuck it.

baby, i wish i was dead.

trenna and i are going downtown.

rob will be over later. i love how he wakes me up with a smile. we are the best.

YOU SAID I fell inlove with you.

I SAID happy fourth of july.

YOU SAID I love to be this close to you.

I SAID stay in bed with me forever.

watching the universe move along, dead grass, green trees. this time i'll never get over you. catch me. i'm waiting. the way you spoke that quietly to calm my heartaches, i see yours too. YOU SAID, I SAID. don't fall inlove with me i'm dangerous. I SAID. YOU SAID. i'll go anywhere. pick a dot. i saw you cry and smile and look and frown. YOU SAID. ( Read more... )

a short nice visit with chet. in az.

i miss home. but it's not home. i have sad feelings about leaving.

tomorrow i fly to pa, to stay with my sister and the kids.

i hope things make more sense in my head.

im terribly mixed up.