Pleasant Day Turns Sour

[trollup]

After spending a lovely time over dinner and some cuddling with Mike last Saturday (before going to that evening's party) I was really looking forward to spending a good deal of today with him. I got a bit of a slow start and didn't wind up getting some of the chores done that I had wanted to. But I got the place tidied up a bit and was ready for

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[courtneydisney]

~hugs~ I'm so sorry that happened - I hope you're ok. Call/write/text/shout if you want to talk.

[trollup]

well, I wound up sleeping on the couch. I woke around 8 to find he'd moved to the recliner. As I woke we talked some and then he said "back to bed". And I found myself going back there with him. I was in a slightly more playful mood by then but still very wary. I brought up several things, but didn't strike at the heart of the matter. I expect I will bring this up when we next talk. I don't think he realizes how much this affected me and that it will not be something easily dismissed with an "I'm sorry", if I wiki be a a me to get past it at all

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[softblueys]

I'm sorry you had to go through that. I remember times like that too. Hugsss

[sharon_masters]

Big hugs--- i am glad we got to talk... yes, this is one of those 'service over self interest' moments-- as i told you, i would have split the party via cab, but i have learned that i need to go early or i would build up huge walls to help me cope, and i can't do that.
i think sometimes, the more we force ourselves to handle, the harder it is to trust,to relax, to give over.
The stronger we have to be for others, the less we can bend. And the more baggage we collect for the trolley.
Love you--- we will have dinner tonight... and we can compare disappointments and laugh at the world.

[bellaballanda]

major hugs.... I can't even imagine doing that... I would have totally panicked....

You know how to get a hold of me if you need to ok....

[mmmicx13]

Hugs and hope this new weeks brightens for you.