Fic: Revelations

[trinityofone]

OMG PEOPLE, I WOKE UP AT FOUR A.M. AND WROTE 3,400 WORDS OF PRIEST PORN! GOD DAMN YOU ALL TO HELL! (And, er, save me a seat?)

Title: Revelations
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: McKay/Sheppard
Categories: AU, PWP, sacrilege
Length: ~3400 words
Summary: AU. John is a priest, Rodney is sin, and I am so going to hell

Comments

[lalejandra]

Nnnnnnnnnnnnnnngh.

What is anyone supposed to say to this?

IT'S SO GOOD BAD FABULOUS OMG FLAIL

[duskyfox]

I was beginning to think that college had killed my Catholic guilt, and then you go and write this.

And it's amazing. John's guilt tied in with the wanting and the fact that he really was a good priest...it's just a beautiful story.

[pentapus]

I was skeptical that this could work when I read the summary... but it did. It really did. And. well. Guh.

[vylit]

This is so hot I feared my computer would catch fire.

More than that, I love how John embraces whatever it is he is doing so completely and utterly, and I think that works very well for his character.

[wychwood]

Oh, wow. That was so sad... You actually made me want McShep not to happen! I don't think that's ever happened before! But very good. Really.

I didn't find this in the least offensive, but I think that it probably means something different to a practicing Catholic than what it does to someone who isn't :) Because mostly what I saw reading this was the sorrow of a lost vocation, of finding that your whole life no longer fits, and you're going to have to leave it all behind - because leaving the religious life is never easy, especially after so long, and because in my experience of people who left for love, the reasons they joined the priesthood remain valid. Even a happy relationship doesn't ever entirely make up for the singleness of vision found during formation, the happiness of a life spent in holy orders... and mostly those new relationships don't last, either.

This was really well-written. But I... wish it hadn't happened? For John's sake. I'm torn, because it's John and Rodney, and I want them to be happy, but...

*feels sad*

[lonespark]

Yes. It is tragic, but I think there can be some continuity of vision and purpose. Eventually.

[wychwood]

To me this isn't kinky, it's *tragic*, the tearing between who you are and what you want, and I think trinity caught the force of that.

Yes, 'zackly. That sense of tragedy was what I was feeling without quite being able to name it. And definitely not kinky - I can see why it could be, for people with a different perception of what is meant by "priest", but it's pretty much never going to be that for me, you know? trinityofone definitely conveyed that sense of loss, as well as the, um, up side of things? The reasons why he's turning away from the church, as well as what he's walking away from.

But I think I feel sadder for John than he feels for himself, and that's saying something.

Oh, yeah. But I think that any sequel(s) to this would end up being astonishingly angsty, John trying to work out what he is doing, who he is going to become - that's a pretty big plank of his identity he's just abandoned. This is not a relationship that is ever going to be easy, even if John can't see that so clearly yet...