I think that is what prompted me to post about it, but really I've been feeling it ever since the Christmas season started. (I was really expecting to be nearing the end of pregnancy this Christmas, remember?)
That is my fear too - that I'll do it and end up hating it and then angry at myself for screwing up my life and wasting all that time.
But my other fear is not doing it and hating myself for not taking a chance and being miserable forever in programming.
Maybe you should talk to D. See what he wants to do?
If it's totally up to you and he holds no opinion either way perhaps combine the best of both worlds - stay where you are now, save for a few months, have a baby or 100, possibly buy a house in between all that, then do PT school to become a nurse. Nursing isn't really a "now or never" option. You have time to get into it while you work toward other goals in the meantime.
What do you think is the worst scenario... doing 3 years of school and finding out that it's not as satisfying as you had imagined/as having a baby sooner would have been... or having the baby and a house and wondering if you would have been happier as a nurse? 50/50 split?
He says that if I want to go to school, I should do it before we procreate, because going back to school after baby would be so difficult (what with the extra money needed for tuition and for baby and the lack of money from me not having a job). But aside from that opinion he is pretty much content to let me do what I want. His only stipulation is that he wants to be employed before we have a baby. (Funny that he would be the best candidate to take over my job when I go on maternity leave, but he couldn't get the job unless I were pregnant, and I can't be pregnant without him having a job. Hehe!)
Of those scenarios? The first one sounds worse. Doing 3 years of school and then finding out that I don't like being a nurse or like it the same amount as being a programmer? That would be the ultimate hell.
effing grown-up decisions, eh? they are so hard and scary to make.
when does your nursing school application have to be in? would you feel comfortable applying and then waiting to make the decision once you hear you get in?
Applications are due February 1. Applying and deciding later is probably what I will end up doing. I just can't stop thinking about it. Going over the pros and cons in my head. Ya know?
i think you should go with what you know... you know you want a baby, you know you want a house, you aren't sure you want to be a nurse.. do the baby & house first.. see if your life is what you want it to be, and if not - keep working on it (go back to school part time, or whatever) .. its hard to think about what your life will be like with a family until you do it.. your perspective will change, your priorities will change.. you might have a baby at home and then realize that you really don't want to be a nurse taking care of other people all the time (maybe your need to take care of people will be all used up and you just won't want to do it anymore?) and being away from your family for long shifts at all hours..
just something to think about!
and i agree that babies aren't that expensive.. you can very easily make them expensive.. but they don't have to be.
That's what the volunteer experience is for, to be sure it's really what you want to do. Nursing is hard and rewarding, but a lot of the time it's more hard than rewarding. If you think you might not like that you probably won't. Only do it if you're really excited about it, because if you're not, you'll probably end up dropping out of the program anyway.
And lots of people go to nursing school with children.
Yeah I think the volunteering is going to help me a lot with this decision. It's easy to romanticize things when you're not doing them, so hopefully this will give me a more realistic view of what nursing would be like.
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That is my fear too - that I'll do it and end up hating it and then angry at myself for screwing up my life and wasting all that time.
But my other fear is not doing it and hating myself for not taking a chance and being miserable forever in programming.
GARHRHHRHGH.
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Maybe you should talk to D. See what he wants to do?
If it's totally up to you and he holds no opinion either way perhaps combine the best of both worlds - stay where you are now, save for a few months, have a baby or 100, possibly buy a house in between all that, then do PT school to become a nurse. Nursing isn't really a "now or never" option. You have time to get into it while you work toward other goals in the meantime.
What do you think is the worst scenario... doing 3 years of school and finding out that it's not as satisfying as you had imagined/as having a baby sooner would have been... or having the baby and a house and wondering if you would have been happier as a nurse? 50/50 split?
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Of those scenarios? The first one sounds worse. Doing 3 years of school and then finding out that I don't like being a nurse or like it the same amount as being a programmer? That would be the ultimate hell.
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(I hope you get the TGS reference there.)
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Eyyyyyyyyyy.
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I know a girl Kristin and her "Leigh's thoughts" name is "kitten".
The Fondz ;)
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when does your nursing school application have to be in? would you feel comfortable applying and then waiting to make the decision once you hear you get in?
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just something to think about!
and i agree that babies aren't that expensive.. you can very easily make them expensive.. but they don't have to be.
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And lots of people go to nursing school with children.
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