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[trilobits]

need to find a way to keep people from stealing my psychic energy. really. if every interaction leaves me feeling drained and used, i need to change either myself or my situation. trusting others is obviously not going to work. sigh.

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[trilobits]

thank you

it would be nice to have emotions again

[supahpixie]

Hello, pal! This is me, bolstering you. :::bolster, bolster, bolster:::

High five.

[trilobits]

youre beyond the best

[violetcheetah]

I'd suggest what I've tried to do recently -- not give a crap about the people around me -- but it hasn't been very effective. It's also interesting to me that you posted this the day after talking about personal growth; I tend to find that my lowest days are after really really good days. Partly it's the self-hating backlash whiplash after daring to feel competent and proud of myself, but there are probably other factors I can't tease out of the tangle.

[trilobits]

well, the personal growth I'm talking about is inside me. its my ability to sync up to what i want. the problems are social because not many people are like me.

[violetcheetah]

But the personal growth, or maybe even just the awareness of it, is a positive. Positives can be dangerous, at least for me: a drug high, hey, i'm getting somewhere, i'm going where i want to go, cool! then thud. as i said, partly not feeling like i deserve it, or that it's really that meaningful, or other internal issues, but also just, being 'up' takes energy, and then the energy is gone and everything seems blah-er. and then if you're already blah and worn down and don't have emotional energy to spare, having that last little bit sucked out by someone is way more noticeable.

[trilobits]

this is true.