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i should post every leap year
during a meteor shower. rarely. uhhhmm. so genderqueer and black and queer queer. right now, i'm wondering why the virtual world seems more fully of groovy gender queers than my real time world. i feel that i'm aging out the gender queer circuit. fewer people i meet have their gender id at the center of their life and it feels age-related. i ( Read more... ) -
more on growing up ugly
it was such a crime to be ugly. the worst possible thing a girl could be was ugly. and i was ugly to my peers. i felt monstrous, misshapen. broad shoulders and chest, large back, no curves to speak of. no redeeming feminizing features. i couldn't understand the vehemence with which my peers met me, the almost visceral rejection. actually, being ( Read more... ) -
growing up an ugly girl
hey everyone- how many of you grew up as an ugly girl because of your gender expression? because of your mannerism, your body type, your way of dressing marked you gender gueer? how did you survive those days? tell your tales of being a teenaged gender queer and i'll tell mine. -
suits and thang, part deux
since i lost part 1 in a butterfingered computer mishap ( Read more... ) -
live journal is a pain in my butt
i hit the wrong key by accident and lost everything i was writing in my journal. is there no save as you go button? maybe i can save then re-open and edit as i write. it works. that's what i'll do from now on, to spare myself the headache of losing what i wrote. -
discomfort w/ bio men
i've been thinking about reasons why i don't want to transition and why it wouldn't feel more accurate to identify as male. part of it has to with my relationship with bio men. i haven't had a friendship with a bio man since i was in elementary school. so it would feel weird and dangerous to be perceived as a man and be expected to socialize with ( Read more... ) -
wanna be starting something
this is mostly gonna be about gender stuff. gender queerness. like what's the use of id'ing as gender queer and not plain old butch. not even gender queer 'cause i would say that i'm female. what does gender queer add, if i ultimately claim female? what do other gender queer folks think? why id as gender queer, especially if you also id as