Fic: There is nothing left at all
There is nothing left at all
Robin figures he should talk to Much. He’s obviously a bit upset about this whole Kate thing, and Robin guess he can’t blame him. He had sort of hoped Much would just get over it though, in that passive aggressive way Much always does. But Much has continued to be quite and introverted, so Robin guess something has to be done. But he keeps putting it off, telling himself he is waiting for a good moment, but truth to be told he is dreading it. Something about how Much has looked at him lately tells Robin this will not be one of those easy talks when he can just push Much into doing whatever he wants. Something has changed, and Robin is pretty sure he doesn’t want to know what.
Much is preparing a rabbit when Robin arrives, and since no one else is around Robin guess this is as good of a time as any to have a little chat. Much gives Robin a quick glance as he approaches, but otherwise makes no sign of acknowledging Robin’s presence. Not good. Robin puts on his winning smile and sits down as close as he can to Much.
“So I get it, you’re mad at me.”
Much doesn’t answer, in fact there is no sign at all he even heard Robin. His hands never stop skinning the rabbit, and the expression on his face never changes. Robin used to be able to read Much like a book, and the fact that he can’t makes alarm bells go off somewhere in the back of his mind. But he ignores them, like he’s been ignoring so many other things lately.
“But c’mon Much, what was I supposed to do? She likes me.” Robin continues.
“How about not acting on it?” Much finally answers. His tone is completely neutral, no sign of anger at all, and this should also worry Robin, but he’s too relieved Much is finally answering him to notice.
“Ok, I admit it was bad of me”, Robin says with his best grin. “But I think I really like her. And besides, I can stop seeing her now if you want.” And he even means it, he thinks, even if he’s sure Much would never actually make him do it.
“No you wouldn’t. And besides, this is not about Kate,” Much says, and there’s something in his tone that should make Robin react, that he would have noticed before, but now somehow fails to.
“Oh. So what’s it about then? Tell me why you’re upset and I’ll fix it”
“There is nothing to fix”
“Come on, I know you’re upset about something. Tell me!” Robin says with his trademark smile still plastered on his face, but when Much finally looks up to meet his eyes the smile dies, because there is nothing in them. No anger, no sadness, just nothing. And when Much speaks, Robin really wishes he had never started this conversation.
“There is nothing to fix because I am done. I don’t know what happened to you Robin, but I am done being on your side. I don’t believe in you anymore.”
“What do you mean?” Robin hates how weak his voice sounds, but he has never seen Much like this, never, and it scares him.
“I will still be here. I still believe in the cause, and I believe in Robin Hood the legend. But I don’t believe in you.”
Much voice is like ice through Robin’s veins, and he finds himself unable to say anything. Much is still skinning the Rabbit as calmly as ever, and in the end that’s what really convince Robin Much is being serious.
“Much, common..,” Robin starts but stops as Much spins around, and finally, finally, there is some anger in his eyes.
“No! Don’t you dare start to try and justify this! Because I have tried Robin, I have already tried for too long to justify your way of treating me, I have done everything to make things work. But I am done Robin. I am tired of seeing you killing, and disregarding peoples feeling, pretending you care but in the end still do whatever you want. We used to be best friends, share everything, and it’s like none of that means anything to you anymore! Remember all that time ago in the barn, when I told you just because I love you doesn’t mean I can’t hate you too? Well I tried to keep loving you, but from your side nothing has changed, and I just can’t do it anymore. I just can’t.
“I don’t hate you Robin”, Much continued as he refocused his attention on the rabbit, “but I have no love left for you. I will stay, I will do my part, but that’s it. I have nothing more to say to you.”
Robin opened his mouth to protest, but no sound comes out. He felt like the ground had just been pulled out from under his feet. This could not be happening. He is Robin Hood and everything always works out. Just like this should have, but somehow something went wrong. He will make it right though, he has to. As the others came back to the camp, Robin keeps repeating that thought over and over in his head. Things will be alright. It has to be. He is Robin Hood. Nothing else is possible.
Robin figures he should talk to Much. He’s obviously a bit upset about this whole Kate thing, and Robin guess he can’t blame him. He had sort of hoped Much would just get over it though, in that passive aggressive way Much always does. But Much has continued to be quite and introverted, so Robin guess something has to be done. But he keeps putting it off, telling himself he is waiting for a good moment, but truth to be told he is dreading it. Something about how Much has looked at him lately tells Robin this will not be one of those easy talks when he can just push Much into doing whatever he wants. Something has changed, and Robin is pretty sure he doesn’t want to know what.
Much is preparing a rabbit when Robin arrives, and since no one else is around Robin guess this is as good of a time as any to have a little chat. Much gives Robin a quick glance as he approaches, but otherwise makes no sign of acknowledging Robin’s presence. Not good. Robin puts on his winning smile and sits down as close as he can to Much.
“So I get it, you’re mad at me.”
Much doesn’t answer, in fact there is no sign at all he even heard Robin. His hands never stop skinning the rabbit, and the expression on his face never changes. Robin used to be able to read Much like a book, and the fact that he can’t makes alarm bells go off somewhere in the back of his mind. But he ignores them, like he’s been ignoring so many other things lately.
“But c’mon Much, what was I supposed to do? She likes me.” Robin continues.
“How about not acting on it?” Much finally answers. His tone is completely neutral, no sign of anger at all, and this should also worry Robin, but he’s too relieved Much is finally answering him to notice.
“Ok, I admit it was bad of me”, Robin says with his best grin. “But I think I really like her. And besides, I can stop seeing her now if you want.” And he even means it, he thinks, even if he’s sure Much would never actually make him do it.
“No you wouldn’t. And besides, this is not about Kate,” Much says, and there’s something in his tone that should make Robin react, that he would have noticed before, but now somehow fails to.
“Oh. So what’s it about then? Tell me why you’re upset and I’ll fix it”
“There is nothing to fix”
“Come on, I know you’re upset about something. Tell me!” Robin says with his trademark smile still plastered on his face, but when Much finally looks up to meet his eyes the smile dies, because there is nothing in them. No anger, no sadness, just nothing. And when Much speaks, Robin really wishes he had never started this conversation.
“There is nothing to fix because I am done. I don’t know what happened to you Robin, but I am done being on your side. I don’t believe in you anymore.”
“What do you mean?” Robin hates how weak his voice sounds, but he has never seen Much like this, never, and it scares him.
“I will still be here. I still believe in the cause, and I believe in Robin Hood the legend. But I don’t believe in you.”
Much voice is like ice through Robin’s veins, and he finds himself unable to say anything. Much is still skinning the Rabbit as calmly as ever, and in the end that’s what really convince Robin Much is being serious.
“Much, common..,” Robin starts but stops as Much spins around, and finally, finally, there is some anger in his eyes.
“No! Don’t you dare start to try and justify this! Because I have tried Robin, I have already tried for too long to justify your way of treating me, I have done everything to make things work. But I am done Robin. I am tired of seeing you killing, and disregarding peoples feeling, pretending you care but in the end still do whatever you want. We used to be best friends, share everything, and it’s like none of that means anything to you anymore! Remember all that time ago in the barn, when I told you just because I love you doesn’t mean I can’t hate you too? Well I tried to keep loving you, but from your side nothing has changed, and I just can’t do it anymore. I just can’t.
“I don’t hate you Robin”, Much continued as he refocused his attention on the rabbit, “but I have no love left for you. I will stay, I will do my part, but that’s it. I have nothing more to say to you.”
Robin opened his mouth to protest, but no sound comes out. He felt like the ground had just been pulled out from under his feet. This could not be happening. He is Robin Hood and everything always works out. Just like this should have, but somehow something went wrong. He will make it right though, he has to. As the others came back to the camp, Robin keeps repeating that thought over and over in his head. Things will be alright. It has to be. He is Robin Hood. Nothing else is possible.