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[trbulnt_spnstr]

I haven't written very much for a while. It feels almost as though I've outgrown this old thing, or at least the icon that represents me. Nonetheless, I look at everyone's entries daily. Today I liked the writing prompt. So I'm going to do it

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[commissarmp]

Dancing was kind of surprising from you, although it also wasn't, since you sometimes seem to take a number of things to their logical ends (not that I don't either), in this case some of the changes that appear to have happened over the last couple years.

It may have nothing in common with it, or it may have been similar to how much I felt I had to drink all teh time in college to compensate for not drinking beforehand. Like, from oen extreme to the other, idk.

Did you ever have depersonalization episodes while (or related to) dancing? That's how I know something isn't me. I realized I was consistently having episodes of it in certain sexual situations (among other situations) so I've just cut them out of my life even if they're appealing. It doesn't matter how appealing something is if you can't unconsciously accept it.

[trbulnt_spnstr]

Wow. I've never heard of that. Yes. That is how my entire life was for a brief period of time. It was insane. I can't wait to have enough money to go to therapy to talk about it.

Thank you for showing me that.