I've been giving a lot of thought lately as to why I can't just end my life. My professed beliefs have always been that on the other side is only love. All is forgiven, all hurts are forgotten, so why can't I just let go? I've been hoping the last few days that the Rx meds I've been taken have been enough to 'accidentally just push me over the edge ( Read more... )

So here I am, May 16, 2014. Yesterday, my mortgage expired (please excused the typos - I'm on ALOT of drugs right now). I couldn't renew because 1) I have no money ans nor job (jus signed up for welfare - no cheque yet) I dont'thing they give mortgages to people on welfare.Expecially since one welfare payment isn't even one of my two week mortgage ( Read more... )

I was shocked to see how long it's been since I posted on LJ. My bad ( Read more... )

I had a daydream today. I dreamed that my mom and my brothers were still alive and that my parents had never divorced. I dreamed that we were all spending Christmas together - me with my son, my brother with his wife and daughter and her fiance and the grandsons he never got to meet, and my other brother, maybe with the wife and children he never ( Read more... )

So - I need my wisewomen on this one. Friends of wisewomen, if you happen to tune in, are welcome to join in ( Read more... )

Thank you, dearest ones, for your words, your support and your affection. Things are looking much brighter now, as they must ( Read more... )

There - I've said it. I have a friend (whose life is going swimmingly BTW - and I don't begrudge her a moment of it, she is a delight and I wish for her every wonderful moment she is currently living) who posts daily tidbits of wisdom in her FB status from The Secret - usually crap about how "hate is just the absence of love" and "negative ( Read more... )

I have a stepsister (Younger Stepsis) with whom I have a conflicted relationship. My women friends who meet her find her "unusual" in a discomfiting way that is hard to explain. She herself has no female friends. We were close when we were young, but our relationship has been particularly strained since my second brother died, mainly because she ( Read more... )

The store was robbed last night. A knock off LV purse, all the sunglasses and all the cash. One of the girls left the front door open when she left - she thought "someone else" would lock up, even though she was the last one out the door ( Read more... )

"Where the Wild Things Are" comes out this week. This book means so much to me and to travson. He can't watch the trailer without crying (which is pretty brutal when you are 22 yrs old and trying desperately to establish your identity as a young man ( Read more... )