I miss you so much. It is keeping me awake despite needing to get up in the morning. Two years ago exactly we would probably be talking online or via phone at this exact minute. ;_;

Nobody I talk to with any frequency really uses this site anymore. It seems that my own use for this is to leave notes for a certain wonderful girl in the chance she looks here. I am too afraid to contact her directly. So, Linni, I want you to know that I still love you very much and think about you everyday. None of that has changed in the least. ( Read more... )

I am scared to contact you but I know you might look here from time to time. It has been awhile so I wanted to post. Linni... I want you to know I still love you and miss you very much.

Probably not going to do anything here for awhile. Though, I suppose what I have done is minimal. I just end up using it to dwell on things. I think doing so has only prolonged the problem instead of letting me deal and move forward.

I suppose even if one wants to die they should attempt to not follow through...

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I am not doing so well. I am on the verge of panicking. I noticed all of Linni's comments on here say "deleted". I believe she deleted her account but I was hoping that stuff would stay. It disappearing is another proof of her existence and presences in my life being gone. I never want to forget her or anything about her. I want to remember the ( Read more... )

Things have been difficult as of late ( Read more... )

I am on the verge of a mental breakdown. Since yesterday morning I have felt depressed, anxious, and like everything around me is strange. I was considering killing myself for awhile. It is as if I have too much making me sad and too much stress and exhaustion. This feeling is horrible. I guess I have just been worn down and my defenses all ( Read more... )

I have been very easily depressed as of late. I think it is a variety of things. The situation with B, her condition, and doctor ineptitude/uselessness has been stressful and difficult. I would like things to go back to normal and her condition treated successfully ( Read more... )