winter welter

[tobin_]

I feel crazy. I think that coming off of birth control is giving me anxiety and insomnia. Matt and I broke up. I keep finding his things around the house. Things that I forgot when I gathered everything up and dumped it on the counter and asked him if he wanted a bag. Books that he lent me, a book he brought over to cheer me up, his clippers that

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I know too well

[clairexxlamour]

That fucking void. The void that fills up every inch of silence I feel so deep in my bones, that it makes me ill. The void I wake up to everyday and run away from. The void that seems to disapear when you meet the "right" person, or so you thought, who makes the void seem like a gift from heaven to share. Once this person is no longer in your life the void pours into your soul like hot black lead.

I hear that the void will be filled again, the universe always has something better in store for us.

This really gave me some insight...

http://www.astrologyzone.com/eclipses/

we should skype or something soon.

Re: I know too well

[tobin_]

Sometimes I feel so far into it that I cant see out, but a few hours later I can feel fine... A lot of it has to do with who Im around, you know how sometimes its lonelier to be in a large group of people?
Atleast I have my books and my loneliness and my cat and people to drink with.
It scares me that the only time the void seems full is when Im with someone, like I should be able to bring myself out of it.
Ughh sorry this is in point form, Im using my parents' iPad.