i really really really want to just stop studying now. i dont feel like i know it... but how bad could this be? i'm getting a 95 in the class, right? i can afford it, right? only no. not so much. if you actually look at my test scores for this stupid class... i average a 86. without my lucky last test i average a 81. that sucks. and ( Read more... )

i'm in a very very bad mood. maybe it has to do with the fact that I had to say good bye to alan yesterday and wont see him again til friday, and then he'll be leaving on Sat... or that i have 2 big tests tomorrow that i dont feel ready for (one is written, a practice board test, i have to do better than 60% of the nations nursing student. i ( Read more... )

just a quick note to give myself a break and to let anyone who cares and who i haven't been in contact with know that i am, in fact, alive. Home from Mexico, Finished with my 4 weeks with Shelia, Alex and 8 great kids, 2 weeks into summer school and an hour into todays library fest. my goal is to get outa here in another 4 hours. that way i can ( Read more... )

so i've been doing my other journal and neglecting this one... sorry about that. I'm in Mexico and getting to be settled, though its been a rollercoster. classes aren't too bad, at least not yet, and though i'm utterly exhausted most of the time... i'm seeing amazing pyrimids, gorgeous volcanos and incredably sweet people. and spending way too ( Read more... )

lalalala. going crazy. the room is crazy. i'm done. i'm leaving tomorrow. i had to say goodbye to people last night. it was not pretty. i might not see Bekki or emily for an entire goddamn year. not ok. but... it will be ok. i need to remember how lucky i am. this is going to be a great and wonderful experiance that i will never in a million ( Read more... )

so i spent 9 1/2 hours dreading john Wiliamsons hair last night... and while i'm tired andmy hands are cramped it was a really freaking good time.... and i think that they look pretty damn good! *happy dance* now i seriously want mine back, buuuuuut.... with clinicals coming up it is not worth it... i really don't want alverson to hate me again ( Read more... )

so first there is work... and it was a crappy day for everybody. then on the way home i realize that i;ve lost my keys con me flash drive and meal card/id. go to lank where i have to wait for a freshman to let me in cause it's locked... but of course it's not there. call work where no one answers and leave a long rambling message. manage to ( Read more... )

worried/excited/skeptical/tired/happy/jaded
whew, you are exhausting.

and then the screaming horror of reality comes sliding into place, and i want to bury my head and cry. please tell me that thats a joke, something you made up, because im scared as hell for you.

My roomates are fucking brilliant. Jess had an amazing solo in band that she played wonderfully and i'm constantly amazed by how well Christine plays, and laura, wow. Her dad cried, adam almost cried, and i couldn't be more proud of her if i was her mother! beautiful. simply. also.... my new favorite poem/prayer. it goes with the whole ( Read more... )