Longing
Title: Longing
Pairing: YamaChii
Genre: angst
Rating: PG
Word Count: 415 words
Summary: I want you but you never saw me.
When I cry alone, what I wish for most is for you to hug me from behind and wrap me in your arms.
When I suffer alone, I want you to come and whisper to me, to tell me softly that everything's gonna be alright.
But... do you know that?
Everytime I cry, I hope for that. I wish to see you, coming over with a smile that shows that your heart is breaking by seeing me cry. I wish that you'll see me at least when I'm crying... but you didn't. You never will. You have someone with you and because of that.. you'll never notice me.
Do you know why I hope for that hug?
I want to feel your warmth as you hug me, to feel your arms around me as if I'm protected from everything.
I want to feel your warmth as you lean on me and to feel your heartbeat. Slow and steady.
But most of all, I want to hear your voice. To hear you whisper to me and tell me that everything's gonna be alright.
I hope for that. I wish for that. But deep down, I know it'll never happen.
You belong to someone else. Your everything reserved for him and him only.
I know I will never get that smile. That smile that says I brighten up your life.
I know I will never hear you say those three words. The words that mean everything to me.
And I know you'll never see me. Not even at times when I need you most.
Because you have him.. and your life is complete.
I wouldn't blame you for this, no matter how much I wanted to. Because I know that it's because of you that I have these feelings. These feelings that made me feel human.
Blaming you would be much easier, maybe I would be rescued but no. You're my precious one and I'll never do that to you.
So I suffer alone and watch.. as you enjoy your time with him.
I hope you're happy with him. I know you are and in one way or another, that makes me happy too.
The hands that I long to hold. The gentle eyes that will never be mine. Those lips, your soft lips.
And that wonderful smile...
I'll let go. I'll try..
because the pain that I get for holding on is too much.
Goodbye Ryosuke. You'll never see me again. You never did anyway...
Goodbye.
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A/N: Uhm.. random inspiration.
Anyway, if you've noticed, I stopped posting my fics on heysay_fanfic. Haha. I got lazy. So now I'm only posting on the YamaChii comm.
If.. you wanna share YamaChii love and help me post there... I'll say hontouni arigatou gozaimasu! ^^
Uh... btw, Yuri died here.