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Turning in my forms and money for Phi Theta Kappa today.

I don't know if I'm excited or nervous.

Probably both.

In all honesty, I can't believe this, or the fact that by tomorrow, I will no longer be a teenager.

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11:20am Friday

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I think I'm going to have to put Karol to sleep tomorrow.

I don't even know how to call a vet's office to say I want to put my animal to sleep. I'd much rather find them passed away then have to do this.
I don't want to play a higher power, whether or not there is one.

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I don't think that I've felt this miserable or self reflective since Korey's passing.

I feel like such a nerd.

June needs to hurry up.

I can't wait to get the closure that I need.

I can't wait to get a raise.

I CAN'T WAIT TO GET EVERYTHING ORGANIZED
I need to vacuum my car, badly.

I could listen to Billie Holiday and Frank Sinatra for the rest of my life.

I love how there's nothing in this house that interests me.
So I eat pretzels.

AND I DON'T EVEN LIKE PRETZELS.much.

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Is this like, "guys who have made me cry get back in touch with me" day?

Oh, making a mistake seems to be in my near future.
but who knows if it's a "mistake"?

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I lied, I'm going to the beach.
I have the whole night to study about humans, and how I could care less about how we function as a society.

I love when I can take the day off of work.

I hate that I have to take it off to do homework/ mistermexam study guides, especially when it's going to be a perfect day to be at the beach.

Gad'damnit.
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I need to get out of here.

I need to get away from being able to drive 15 minutes to get back to my past.

It's a girl.

I need to get away from the fact that I have so many connections to finding these things out, and they're all too easy to access.

I'm trembling.

It's a girl.

Oh no, it's much worse than that.

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