I highly doubt anyone ever reads this any more so why not really. After reading some of my journal posts from when i was younger it has shown me exactly how much i have grown up. I was always looking for a fix from someone else. Hoping someone else would be able to complete a part of me that was missing. It wasn't someone else i needed at all it ( Read more... )

Lightning showered the sky with dull platinum veins, the thunderous deafening heartbeat soon followed, and all the while, rain poured down like blood on anything it could touch. A stormy night painted the perfect backdrop for the events that took place; the seven guests, the dinner, the bloodshed, the murder. No one would have expected that the ( Read more... )

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I dont think I am ready for a relationship. The end.

thinking a lot lately. And I am starting to realize that what you gave to me and what i got from you, as much as u might have tired to love me as much as you could. I was stupid to think it was anything. You really jsut love yourself. I never saw or knew this before. I was jsut too stupid to think it and I was too young to know it. Someone will ( Read more... )

once I get one. I want another one. Once one is mine I am not satasfied. I want a different one. A better "version". Mabye I am not mature enough for a realtionship yet. Just when it gets to a realtionshisp they always seem complicated and like I dont know . They just seem horribly stressful. Alwasy wanting to know where they stand or how they ( Read more... )

seeing kaz

being accepted at work

having the grestest friends ever

likeing who I am.

thought it had the opportunity to be horrible, it turned out incredibly well. Ana doesnt hate me. Bernie isnt mad at me. I can help evelyn. And this time last year I can safely say I am amazingly beter then I was. I have grown so much and I like who I am now I cna sefly say. I am no longer looking and clinging onto people. I am safly afloat all by ( Read more... )

was really good. Amazingly not a lot of people came, but I am starting to realize a lot of people isnt better.

Bernie I am so sorry. It was totaly miscommunication.

today I bought insperationaly jeans, jeans u by when u are aming for a size and shape. It isnt that they dont fit. It i jsut they could fit better. And they will trust em by the end of enxt weke they will.

Going to college pill free. My gyno amazed I dont want ot ahve a lto fo sex in college. HAHAHA! So pill free judy everybody.